Welcome to my blog and another wonderful edition of the hive learners' featured post. For sure, we are all wired differently and carry different personalities. Growing up changed a lot of things in my life. I am so certain that the little me and the me of today are completely different people.
While growing up, I found it difficult to abstain from visiting the playground, no matter how hard my parents tried to make sure I always stayed indoors. I always sneak out of the house. I already have my mind made up for whatever will come later, but first of all, I really need to have fun.
I was famous for how I normally played around with friends and even those who were older than me. Playing was the code to gain access to my life. I miss the life I lived while growing up. I grew up into someone different. I find it very hard to associate with people. I just want to be left alone all the time. Even when people try to get close to me, I tend to push them away. I just keep thanking God for my type of friend.
Some people say I am weird, while some say my introverted way of life is on another level. I find it hard to play these days. Friends I grew up with keep complaining, and I always apologise for my type of lifestyle. I promise them I'd change, but I just can't help it.
At this point, you can stand and they will just jump on your back. At this point, I try with everything I have to reciprocate, but sometimes I fail. Where they are getting it all wrong is expecting me to jump on their back as well. I find it hard to play with friends; some even say it's pride, but I don't know why it's so hard for me.
I have tried playing many times just to make friends happy and comfortable around me, but I failed. I might have in mind that when we see, I will try to play, and when we eventually cross paths, I will just forget about what I had in mind earlier. If this is really the introvert's way of life, then I don't think I want to be one because sometimes it gets boring.
Since I can't play, I found other ways to keep company. I tease friends a lot. To some extent, this makes us even, but they still want me to be that type of person that plays as well. I just wish I could.
Thanks for reading my post.
