That's what she said
trying to write
Why do I find it so hard to bring myself to write. Once upon a time, I was very prolific, and loved it with a passion, as most writers do. I see everyone just trotting along with life and I know I'm not the only one with issues. I've talked to others about their system, their process, and it sounds so simple.
I know it comes down to things get better with use, so i sit here, forcing myself to write what comes to mind. Stream of conscious I believe it's called. And honestly, my brain doesn't come up with a lot.
but why
Well, I do tend to think Programmatically, as in programming languages, I've found I even dream in code sometimes. Which I personally find as a boon, but not having an internal "vision" can seriously be a crux. I believe the official diagnosis for it is called aphantasia.
My creativity has waned with lack of use, and to think I used to Game Master all the time when i was younger, what happened to that spark of ideas. I don't even think I could come up with an adventure in my current mindset.
now what
There is nowhere to go but up. I need to keep trying, even if it's silly experiments and one off stories. The key is to keep at it. Maybe it will come flooding back one day, Then you will never shut me up. :)
I had to try today,
Michael Garcia a.k.a. TheCrazyGM