Something just crossed my mind, and I decided to lay it down on paper.
To be frank, I'm not sure what will come out as I'm just following my train of thoughts.
I look around me. Everyone seems so happy I feel like the only person that doesn't sleep at night, the only one burdened by problems or thoughts.
Yet, amongst humans, I'm perceived as the most optimistic of them all. They're amazed at my ability to always keep a smile on my face. Some might say I sleep with a grin (I assure you, I'm not).
Though I wonder, why am I so? Why do we avoid showing our true feelings? Perhaps we're afraid to be ridiculed by those that find joy in doing that? (even though they possess the same feelings as you and me).
Perhaps.
If so, people themselves are to blame for refusing to show their true nature publicly. We're all to blame for our inability to reveal the truth about ourselves, and instead, put on a mask to hide behind. And that's, I believe, how it's always going to be.
I can't imagine how it'd be possible to reprogram society since there are so many bad people in it. Maybe we shouldn't even try and thus bury the last hope that someday everything will be fine. After all, people are so imperfect that they will never find one best thing to settle on.
If not for my few friends that I can trust and can rely on when times are tough, I doubt that my sanity would remain intact. Friends can save you when you stare at the bottom. The true ones can even keep you sane by listening and enduring your pains together. That's what friends are for.
Remember to remember them.
