HEY GUESS WHAT EVERYONE!!! I don’t really have much to say today. Lmao. I am feeling strange these last 48 hours or so; lonely, homesick, isolated.. I mean hell, I’m not even that isolated. A quick drive will take me to several metropolitan areas.. but it’s the loneliness that’s getting to me.
Ironically, I’ve spent the last couple evenings literally hiding. But hell, man, talking to people that you don’t know well, and subsequently don’t know you well, is a fucking handful. There are people I could probably go hang out with right now- but the first to come to mind is someone I am actively avoiding; and he wouldn’t help much either.
I’m not gonna bore you beautiful people with me sad-sack rambling about the choices I have made and the position I’ve put myself in; cause you’ll have to deal with that on any other random given day. I am happy and exactly where I want to be- but god damn, what I wouldn’t do for just a fucking hug right now. Like a real one.
But instead, I spend my post-work time hanging out in this absolutely beautiful historic lodge; a five mile walk from where I ultimately need to end up. This routine started yesterday; mainly I just needed to charge my power banks.. but also I needed to have a night off from hiding from mt stalker. He’s not really a stalker. But kind of. I mean hell, I’m almost having panic attacks whenever I hear a vehicle with a shitty exhaust these days. I heard a dirt bike last night and went into disaster mode shutting off all the lights and climbing under my blankets to hide, afraid to move for a solid 10 minutes in case I was found out.
Anyways, yeah. Thats pretty much my activity for yesterday. Hiding, and then hiking down in the dark. Today looks like it’s shaping up to be the same. I felt pretty alright this morning, so hopefully I wake up tomorrow in a less pitiful mood. I hope you all are having a good day, night, or whatever’s in between! Much love
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