I am tired of this life because this is not what I wanted. I should have taken that place if that person didn't steal it from me. I feel like giving up after how many times I failed. Sometimes I ask myself why it's just me who experienced this. How many liters of tears I shed because this should not happen after I've tried so hard.
I think you should stop already and understand that it's too much.
Nothing happens for no reason. Never forget the fact that every action has its own consequences. Accept it instead of complaining, if you haven't tried it in the first place you will never know what comes next. I understand it disappoints you or even worse, desperate you. It's hard to believe why the results are like this when you are sure to yourself you did the right thing. It's true that it's hard to accept after what you've been through. The thing is, life doesn't always please us in everything we do.
You can't tell what is happiness without experiencing sadness. You can't feel what is success without failure. Sometimes it's just the way it is no matter how hard we are to refuse to admit it. Though it doesn't mean we should just give up because it's useless to fight back. Needless to hoping since we think there's no reason for it which is not true.
If you have time to complain why not use it by trying more and more. There's no winner without losers but don't think of yourself as a loser always. Maybe it's not your time yet or maybe it's just your key to committing that medal you wanted for a long. Don't blame other people just because of what's happening to you. Don't think it's someone or somebody's fault that you are suffering right now. Don't think you are the victim here when you refuse to give the best of your best. If you think you sweated enough for you to achieve your dreams. Maybe you misunderstood that some winners shed blood but not just sweat.
If you think you've done enough, maybe we really are not. Try to understand yourself more and refresh your mind. If you fall, crawl but not cry to reach your destination. If ever you fail, keep holding to that dream, no matter how many times you'll do it - it's alright. Why think of surrendering when you want something in your life to happen. You will regret it later when you'll realize that you can still have something to do to make it happen. Stop complaining and continue moving. Just think that it is not enough yet and maybe you need to do more.
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Paul is the name but prefers to be called mrnightmare that feels like living in the dream. A country boy and a dreamboy (dreamer) who likes to stay in a small village even though it means abandoning the future to become a seaman. The passion is writing but not sailing in the vast ocean. Don't wonder if the face will not be shown, this is better where the words can flow smoothly. Come, you can tell me your stories and I'll tell you mine. Together, let's explore the world by broadening our thoughts. If you need a shoulder I can lean you mine and I hope I can lean yours. The world is fun when living is not being alone but with someone.
