The struggle I'm going through and the weight I'm losing, among others, are being visible pretty clearly now. In the past, those were in shadows, or perhaps I didn't see clearly. Now things are as clear as daylight; people are kinda getting away with themselves.
Like in the past, if I were in my hometown, I wouldn't need to worry where to hang out, or with whom, because there were plenty of options to pick from, or they would call me. Now things are getting different; people are getting busy with themselves, some are settled in somewhere else, and I'm also losing my priorities due to some mischief I did recently.
Whatever I'm facing is completely justified; if I were in their place, I might have done the same, or worse, perhaps. But I don't know why it's a little bit uneasy for me to digest this change or effect.
Life works mysteriously; sometimes we feel like it's so easy, and sometimes the ways are too complicated to navigate properly.
You may say, I might be wrong with my thoughts, things aren't exactly like I'm saying, right? Nope, I'm not, because the people who are maintaining distance, showing business are the same people to whom I was closer than anyone else, prioritized at everything, why? Because my situation was better, I was financially solvent, and used to spending a good amount. Remind you, I'm not talking about all, only a few, some had other, really unavoidable works, but a few are clearly doing that on purpose. I can sense it, not now, but from months or a year ago. Now it's gotten extreme, haha.
In Dhaka, I'm almost alone. I have no friends there, so my mind works that way. My daily schedule is also like that; I have things to do one after another. But here in my hometown, I had a different routine, right? Hangouts, chills, something like that. So when I'm seeing that exact opposite, it kinda hurts me. But it was bound to happen, I'm at fault, can't deny.
So yeah, the writing seems a little bit unclear. It's just I'm confused as well on how to put in the words before you. Nor can I escape my faults, or can't digest the behaviour they are doing. Things are perfectly in their place, like how beautifully you will see a glass being scattered into pieces when it gets broken after falling, watch it in slow motion. Something like that……
