It's been 3 days I posted anything on Hive and it's beginning to look like I'm not be fully active as I use to be, at least, not anytime soon. This isn't because of the market conditions, this is infact because of the health scare I've had for over 5 weeks now.
Before that illness hit, I only had a sore throat and then fever, only for it to spiral to blood in urine, and anemia including other complications and symptoms.
For the first time ever, I've slowed down. I got paid about 650$ before my illness broke out from my last Twitter gig, and the money came in handy, but now, I can't even hustle as I used to, the fear of crashing into another illness, the scare of raising blood pressure, the uncertainty of building something good, just to get sick when it all begins to yield dividends.
I've come to realize that nothing we truly have is ours, especially when the health comes crashing down.
I took a break from almost everything, except a few other things to provide money for food and medicine, it feels like just living to afford the medical bill of next week, or replacing the pills of tomorrow, food and shelter.
No big plans nothing, just survive today, have faith, hope and pray that tomorrow is better. Today I decided to express my thoughts once again.
I got a DM from someone who thought I was quitting Hive because they thought I was no longer motivated or because of price. They said it in a way that insinuated "well if josediccus is giving up, we might as well just pack it up"
In the previously years I've been active through illness and all that, but I haven't been hit as big as this in 4 years, it was constantly rampaging and my body was in severe pain.
7 years ago, I could push past it, but I'm older now, and recovery seems to take longer. Again,
I'm not leaving Hive, by I guess times will come where 3, 4 or 5 months breaks will now be inevitable, either due to illness, in real life issues, or psychological issues to deal with.
Today is a better day, and I'm scheduling my hospital appointments for 2 to 3 weeks time, with the hope that I could have gotten even better. Thanks to everyone who texted me, I may not reply, because I'm just trying to push recovery but thanks a million, I appreciate everything.
