With ideas like a tornado whirling around in my head I always look forward to each weekend engagement and when I finally read the long-awaited Friday night on this American continent the responses erupt when I read the diversity of Mr. Galen's proposals.

Today I choose two of the questions, even though they all "according to my perspective" lead me to "fear, guilt, control, envy, hate, sadness" what many of us feel when we are "dead in life" for not finding or losing the meaning of life.

Is there something in you that you know you should let go of, but haven't been able to? What is it, how does it affect you, and why can't you let it go?

We are learners every time we live extreme moments and I consider that everything is a balance and becoming aware of it will allow us to move forward.

Being afraid of cancels me out and if it is to live worse even more so. After all, if there is something I should not be afraid of, it is death. Because since I was born it is the only thing I have been sure of, and I have seen it head-on, very close, I have even lived it in some way. Besides, why be afraid of it if I don't know the afterlife?

Like many people I rationalize that it is the worst, because, I think about myself, my attachments, the search to transcend, what will they do without me, I will not be able to finish the project, etc. My personality is antifragile, and more than once I have put on a scale how vulnerable I can be. That's the way I am.

And I say that because more than once with my grandmothers and other loved ones, I have had a hard time saying goodbye when they are already irretrievably in agony. Preferring that they do everything possible to maintain life despite knowing their irreversible destiny... there too I show how hard it is for me to face myself, the loneliness, the pain of not having the support of the loved one, the enjoyment of their company... everything speaks of myself, not of what the dying person feels... Without realizing it, I am selfish.

Also, if I am coherent and paradise exists and my soul does not owe it, well, that will be my destiny. To stay here and live the uncertainty, the maelstrom of the times to come, ... that is a challenge!

Is there anything worse than dying? What is it, and why do you think it is worse? Explain your answer.

On the other hand, everything that happens to me happens, expected or NOT, depending on what glasses I have on the day I think about that which implies pain and terror to live.

For me, the meaning of life begins every time I wake up every day, in every dawn, because everything passes, changes and although the pain is not totally forgotten; I still remember when I was diagnosed with breast cancer, the experience was terrifying, but it passes and can be lived again from love and gratitude.

Living with death must be done, even with a good sense of humor; because it is the only way to make the road bearable when we go through or are going through the diagnosis of this disease; I know it is not easy to face it.

My intention is that you know that even from the pain, we can get up and move forward. To start again from a better version of ourselves and with a better attitude towards life.

That fear is normal, rather than not feeling it would be different.

I don't have to be strong, there is no shame in feeling pain, sadness, anger, or frustration; there is no shame in having to ask for and receive the help of all kinds or in accepting what others lovingly do or give for and to you.

SENSITIVITY is my human way of doing something for others

Whatever I can teach others, I will do through this window on Hive about this experience of how I achieved the ultimate of my essence "LIVING".

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Because only people who have lived through this know how hard, cruel it is to be diagnosed with cancer, but everything passes, and we move forward with a lot of fear of dying... That is the maximum of the essence of achievement.

Sometimes I just need them to be there, even in silence.

I feel so happy and grateful that I couldn't help but show you my wonderful transformation. My heart beats rapidly with emotion, full of immense gratitude; I am very fortunate; I have around me professional, noble, supportive people with great human sensitivity.

A big hug to all those who went through or are going through this... know that there will always be someone for you.

My greatest achievement is LIFE!

I happen to look at myself in that cover photo in this post, and in all the ones I took today when I was walking around the city, even on the way I ran into a ponsigue tree (little wild apple) with its ripe fruits that I enjoy, I can see myself calm, in freedom, peace, my hair grew, even a collected tail I can make myself, I use the cap to protect myself from that beloved sun in my land.

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Sometimes I complain, I don't like the way my hair has grown because I have curls at the ends that I don't like very much, and I say to myself Jani don't complain so much, your hair grows beautiful even with curls, that means you are HEALTHY! In the name of God! Then I remember all that I have lived, that I should be grateful and that I am still.... Alive !

My message is that we enjoy the adventure of being afraid and taking risks (in all aspects of life) and when we don't know the answers, we look for them even if they are not what we expected.

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If, you are convinced that you have lived what you have wanted, and it has made you happy in all aspects of life. What makes you feel fear and take risks?

I'll read you in the comments.