When I was working in a full time job I was feeling like as if I was a machine, it was the same routine every day, wake up at a particular time, do the house chores, get ready, go to work, come from work, take care of house and family and the day ends. And I would keep thinking when would this end, some days I was on high energy but with this routine most of the days I was sulking, I was feeling like I was not doing anything in life, then over the weekend I would try to squeeze in all the other things that I wanted to do and that would leave me exhausted at times. And that's life for many people.
In that moment I could not imagine any other life besides that, so when I quit working, for the first few months I was feeling totally lost, so much set up in a routine and then suddenly that breaks off. The time that I spent at my work was all empty for me and I did not know how to utilize it fully. I had a few things to do but that was not enough. That's where I started slowing down in life, slowly gradually I started filling up those empty spaces of time in my day by doing things that I enjoyed.
To be honest, for 1 full year I struggled with all of this mentally and emotionally, it was a challenge to deal with from hands full to hands empty. But then I spent a lot of time on self-reflection, to understand what I really want from life and that's where I started getting clarity and not only clarity but I was finding myself becoming peaceful from within. I was slowing down, I started to feel and observe things around me, I was becoming sensitive about my environment, which was missing.
This is the life that I love now, I am not chained up to do things and to work like a machine. I can set the rhythm of my day the way I like. It does have it's own pros and cons but then at the end of the day all that matters is what brings us joy. There are many people who find joy in working and achieving great heights in their career. I have never been that person. For me the job was only because I wanted money and every day I was feeling like I was in a grinding. Though when I quit it was difficult to break off from the chains and it took some time to bring that shift within.
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