Yesterday I started to write about a thought or opinion over something. I was writing on and on, after a moment I didn't know what stroke at me that I had cleared the whole writing. Didn’t even think of keeping a backup of that, I just wanted to erase whatever I wrote at that moment. I erased the whole thing and slept a little and then started to watch a tv-series that I was watching for the last few days. Maybe that was a mood swing or I had written what I shouldn’t have. Actually, I was writing over an emotional matter that hit me hard yesterday. Often I do these things that I write whatever stress in my mind goes, get some relief, and erase everything. Or sometimes publish those.
Let's move on. I watched a random video on youtube where an interviewer was asking a guy about what type of girl he would prefer to marry. everyone thought he would mention some quality, some beauty, or these types of distinguishing things. But he did turn the tropic into another way. For him, girls are not any kind of goods that could be measured by some filter and then marry. For him it was all about heart, he would marry with whom his heart will feel comfortable, with whom he will get befriended and come close, with whom his heart will make love.
Actually, that's true. That's how all this happens. You can't really decide with whom you will be loved properly or who shall love you unconditionally. Arranged marriages are good, I am not against it, I would also l love to prefer whomever my parents will choose for me. I can't really say that only the girls with dimples will make me happy. I can't give a guarantee that only tall girls will be the best pair in my heart. We really can't sort them like products we buy from the shops. Like, give me a chocolate Ice-cream, I love chocolate so that will be tastier to me compared to vanilla Ice-cream. Well, we do have some desires that don't guarantee you of your heart. Our hearts can strike in different ways too.
From my thoughts, I can say that we can't really get rid of the hangover of our beloved ones to whom we ever shared our hearts. Deep inside of you, there will remain a place for them forever. No matter how much hatred you have for that person but there will be some emotions left that will bear respect. Doesn’t the hatred mean to be only pushing that person away? Why do we care even after all the hatred? That's the respect for your love. That's what our hearts choose for our-self.
These matters are really complicated. Everyone can't agree with others' feelings and thoughts. For me, it is what I feel for and I don't have any particular menu which has set the conditions of with whom I would be happy. Even now, I think I could be the happiest person with that person for whom I have the most hatred in my heart. Aren’t all these complicated to you? Yeah, they are to me.