I thought 2026 wouldn't be as hard as 2024, especially 2025. I have suffered a lot in these past two years; the root of the suffering was money. If you aren't financially solvent, then you gonna have a very hard time, especially when you have too many responsibilities on your shoulders that you can't run away from.
My assumptions were that the start of January would be towards the upside for me to slowly but steadily come out of the stressful situations. February passed, its march now, already 7th, things aren't going as expected, I'm still the guy whois doing financial calculations 24/7 to adjust things from here and there and surviving somehow. Every month, I feel like, "Okay, let this pass; the next one should be fine." And guess what, on the next, there is a new surprise to stress me even more. At this rate, things gonna take an eternity to get better.
My financial luck is so bad that it leaves no scope to freak me out. Like, it's the month of Ramadan ongoing, a festive season is knocking on the door, also some more expenses. Usually, in this month, we are prone to spending money on quality living like good food, clothes, relaxtion and all. And here I am, broke as hell, on top of that, the salaries are coming late than the due date, which made things worse. You tell me, in such a month, when you need money for these expenses, got to do shoppings and all, they too acknowledged the situation and told you to clear the salaries by the 5th of this month. And guess what, on the evening of the 5th, they said sorry that they wouldn't be able to disburse on that day and it would take place on the 8th, isnt that frustrating? Where all the companies are cooperating on this matter, and we are getting unfavourable situations that are pushing us towards delays even more. Thats what my luck is on financial matters.
I'm trying my best to cope with the growing expenses and my overall financial situation. Things are not getting under my control as I had expected or planned; things are popping up unexpectedly, which is making things a little worse. I'm not stopping trying, each and every time I face these obstacles, I feel like this is it, I'm gonna get past it, and things are gonna get better soon. Come on, I must motivate myself enough to survive mentally to keep moving.
To be honest, things aren't in my favour, or they are, kinda mixed, which is making things confusing to me. I fall into problems, get stuck, and in the next moment, Almighty Allah pulls me out of that situation somehow, and that's the reason I don't give up because I know He's gonna give me the strength to tackle no matter what. Okay, here I am, looking towards the coming days once again with a hope that things gonna get better pretty soon and till then, I must keep fighting.
