Last week, I was detached from the keyboard to write blogs. The reason isn't anything related to the market getting red; it's due to the problems that I encountered in my personal life in that little timeframe.
Recently, I'm feeling too weak to operate, like always tired and weak, lack of sleep leading to untimely sleep. Sometimes, it's like I almost fell just because I was sleepy, even on the buses. I don't know why and how I am being like that, always low, not focused on work, making mistakes, and dragging things lengthy. Also, delaying on the stuff that is too much important to me, and even after knowing I'm just delaying on and on.
Am I getting burned out?
Kind of, actually, I got burned way before today. All I knew was that I must rise from the ashes if needed as well, and not being able to muster that courage to pull this one. I'm on a stress engine where we are getting stressed for hours. My senior used to back me for such cases, but now, things go even further after him.
I know, we need such breaks to make the comeback more effective and fruitful. Alas! I didn't hit the trigger, but now things that made things easier, particularly a few, have been like a complete circus. Time is ticking, with each day I'm losing the opportunity to start, it will result in sliding away from here, but I am not selfish. If a good amount of time is purchased and doing good as a company wise, then you will get your drinks.. Not before that,
So why am I still awake?
At this late hour, 3.29 AM, exactly when I wrote this line. I am supposed to sleep, and wake up before 8.00 AM to get freshened up, fight the mighty jam of Dhaka, and reach the office somehow before 9. It's been too much to keep things steady amidst such a sleepy head. I'm fully running on coffee, tea, or so. A proper coffee can set me up for hours on full throttle. But sometimes we fall for the tiny stuff that leaves the biggest scar, illusions. Now, determined to research a few things that have been avoided over and over again. Got them back from the farmgate because I need to level up again.
So yeah, I'm the sleepyhead, lazy guy, and so on, but when taken into action, I leave no stone unturned to discover the whole stuff in life.
Best regards
Minhajul Mredol
