Doubt, The Silent Killer
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Doubt
The silent killer of strong people.
If I had to pick only one thing that ruins people, their lives, their goals, their being at it's core... it would positively be doubt.
Doubt creeps in and just fucking ruins your day. It can perpetuate to vast extremes and literally take your life from you.
I know for certain.
I've lived in doubt now for almost 4 years. I moved 2500 miles to help my daughter from some fucked up shit and the moment I did I lost everything.
A couple months later the covid shit started. With that came the loss of my way of life for 2+ years.
I'll keep this part short and just say that I've had to live, feeding one kid that entire time, and 2 through the worst of it, on under $250 per month. For much of that time it was around $100 per month. I'm in the United States.
I didn't say per week. I've been earning around what many people in the Philippines earn if they dont have a college degree. Of course in our country there is food stamps. So, if I include what we get in food stamps I suppose we've been living on around 750 because we get 500 in food stamps. For most of that time it cost us $50 in gas just to go get groceries because of where we are (luckily now we have a small economical car). It's safe for me to say that we've been living in real poverty for years now.
My immediate family is pretty poor all things considered. Regardless, most of them have a tendency to betray at the first sign of weakness. So I've never really known family support. It's actually so foreign to me that when I see families being supportive of one another I do my best to study them.
So...
Do I know doubt?
Abso...
fuckin...
lutely!
I know doubt man. I know doubt to the depths of self demise.
I know what it is to fucking doubt.
To not feel adequate.
To not feel capable.
To fail over and over with no end in sight.
I know what it's like when nothing makes any fucking sense and shit just went upside down.
I know what it's like when every single thing seems so far out of reach.
I know how it feels to go to bed hungry.
I know how it feels to wonder if your home will be taken from you.
I know how it feels to know you have to protect and have no idea how you will.
I know what it is to have fucking nothing and try to build something from it.
I know doubt.
Doubt has tried to get me to commit suicide several times in the last 4 years.
Doubt has left me unable to motivate.
Doubt put me in a position just barely surviving for these years.
I fuckin know doubt.
It's a perfectly created little monster we carry sometimes that can steal every miniscule thing from our existence.
Our hopes.
Our dreams.
Our motivation.
Our very life force itself.
Doubt can suck you so dry you won't move. You will freeze in place. Days will pass and you will freeze. Days can turn into weeks and weeks to months. Time will pass an you will not be part of it.
A lifetime can pass this way and I've personally seen it. This is the greatest waste.
Holy Fuckin Listen Up!
Kick your doubt in the ass!
Give it the old 1, 2!
Listen, if you're just looking for an easy way to kill doubt it's action. I'll do another post on that, this post is about something else.
A fun fact that people often don't consider about doubt, is that it is perfect.
Doubt, as well as worry, is structured to perform precise manifestation. It is structured so that your mind will continue to focus on the thing you are doubting. You might see images in your head of things like what ifs or scenarios that play out in your head that strengthen that doubt inside.
This design is perfect!
Let's learn from what doubt has to teach.
How does doubt work?
Being unsure or uncertain can sometimes bring on doubt.
Lack of knowledge can sometimes bring on doubt.
Doubt can be brought on from a multitude of stimuli yet it all seems to center on some internal disbelief in oneself. Sometimes an overall internal disbelief in your own capabilities, often a disbelief merely resulting from not knowing your capabilities with a specific thing.
Regardless of how it comes on, it acts perfectly from that point to manifest more of the doubts you have into your life.
This is where the most learning from today's teacher (doubt) is.
Once you have doubt, many of us already understand that it acts like a plague inside you and stalls/stops forward progression.
What may still be mystery is that we can learn by watching our doubt.
I'll say that again a bit bolder:
We can learn by watching our doubt.
We can learn the perfect structure to manifest what we want by watching doubt because it is literally governed by precisely the same structure.
Doubt and worry act very similar in this regard. We are talking about doubt today yet bare in mind that worry acts nearly identical to this. (I'll do something on worry another time)
How can something so harmful to us teach us? Because it acts perfectly. Doubt does perfectly what many of us strive to do even half ass in our lives.
Let's follow the process
If we follow the process of doubt we can see quite clearly through what it does... exactly what we need to do. Not only to overcome the doubt, also to achieve anything we desire anywhere in this world.
When we doubt we second guess our path forward.
Ok, how do we commonly do this?
Images and scenarios... pictures of the what ifs swarm our minds.
Think about this for a moment, this is not something we commonly look at.
When you start to doubt, literal images will play out in your mind. Actual fucking images! Sometimes they are so fast that we don't even realize we see them. This here is overwhelmingly crucial to understand. You will see things in your mind that influence you to further your doubt.
Ok, some of you just went "I'm not sure it's actually images." Ok, think back to the last thing you were doubting, it likely wasn't that long ago. Think about the things you doubted....
Why did you doubt them?
Now stop.
This description you are about to give, listen to it.
Did the word doubt pop in your head to make you doubt? No.
Did any actual word surrounding this doubt pop in your head? No.
We rarely ever see actual words in our mind. We speak them often in there but we rarely actually see the words. We see images that we have created from the thoughts we have. Those thoughts are in a way governed by the words we know because we think in words. This is our "minds eye".
So, you think a set of words that make you feel a particular way then you essentially begin creating pictures based on the energy of what you've now thought of. These pictures you create will be based on your experience.
This formulation for the images will happen as a result of you, being human, having a set of words that produce a set of emotional responses then further produce, through a compellation of your emotions and the words, images and scenarios in your mind that tie all of this hoopla together.
Doubt is essentially reactionary. The reaction we don't see happening is from whatever word base we have that produces whatever feelings we have that come together to paint whatever picture we see.
Get it?
So why is all this so important?
The fact that you create images in your mind when in doubt is fiercely important, however it becomes compounded by something I should mention before answering this fully.
Once these images or scenarios begin to playout, they play over and over and over in your head until its all we can see. This exponentially compounds the effect of it being an image.
This is huge!
The absolute quickest way to manifest anything is to obsess over it.
When you want something bad enough you will obsess over it. You will think about it all the time. When you're really in tune with that and manifesting what you want at your peak potential you are indeed picturing tons of scenarios in your head. You will also picture these scenarios all the time.
Whether you are obsessing for positive gain or doubting, you are following the same steps.
It's precisely the same formula.
So you CAN learn from doubt!
Like I said before, doubt is perfect.
You start to doubt or worry then the scenarios play out and each time one does play out it strengthens the doubt.
It also puts you closer to it.
Each time you allow a doubt to play out (or an obsessive thought) you will naturally put yourself closer and closer to really being in that moment you are seeing in your mind. Each time you will see it more clearly. At first the images might be really vague or super incomplete in both scenarios... a positive obsession or a doubt.
Eventually it becomes inevitable for the scenarios in your head to play out in real life. This of course also is the same whether you are doubting or manifesting. To the universe they are indeed the same thing. There is literally no difference to how they both work.
I was taught to do something great.
I was taught that to convince myself of my own manifestation power I should do something I currently believe to be improbable or just out of my reach. This way, when I achieve it I know for sure it was from what I had consciously attempted. This is a great tool to have on your belt for sure, yet for some this might be currently out of reach. (See what I did there?)
When doing something seemingly impossible seems to far out of reach you can look at your doubts, fears and worries as your teacher.
Because these all work the same way, by ultimately creating images and scenarios to play out in our heads.
We can look to them for guidance.
Because look at them.
They make us obsess. When we obsess we literally begin creating images in our minds that we can then grow and nurture. We will build these scenarios, adding to them sometimes along the way exactly as we do when manifesting.
The universe sees this the same. Nearly computer like, without emotion or consideration for you. It's merely the fact that you were consumed by it that creates more.
Using the precise formula we just used to perfectly manifest more doubt in our lives we can also create anything of our choosing, including a better life. The key is what images we ultimately produce from our individual word based thought patterns that are anchored to our individual emotional responses to those thought patterns.
It's literally just the images you see in your mind.
Wait, did he just say it's all in my head?
Yep.
It's all in your fuckin head man.
It always was.
So get in there and take a look already, you'll be amazed!
We often find manifesting what we really want to be hard. Yet, doubt and worry are easy.
Don't let doubt be your silent killer.
The only difference between doubt and manifestation is that when we doubt we are focused on what we don't want and when we manifest we are focused on what we do want.
The rest is precisely the same.
Go look at your doubts and see what makes them easy. The very same thing making your doubts easy will inevitably make manifesting what you want easy as well because the universe sees what you are doing no differently.
Doubt, The Silent Killer
by Michael David
Co-founder of #thealliance and loyal since before the egg.
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