The truth is, we all want to be the hero, even while growing up, we always want to be the individual who get applauded, the ome who shows up, the one person that saves the day... Well, there was really a time I wanted that so bad, not until I realize that in life, the hero hardly survive.....So, if I had to choose, I rather be that villain you hate than that hero you drain.
I would tell you why, this is not a movie, this is real life, being the hero here in Nigeria is not about the power you wield or the capes you wear, those are in movies, being the hero means you constantly sacrificing yourself for people, and those people often think your kindness is weakness. They call you a good girl/boy, whereas they are the ones breaking you.
And you know what they often say when they've used you and sucked you dry...God will reward you, it's their anthem, people have died untimely deaths because of people like this, they applaud them all the way down, they never gave them room to see themselves, they kept breaking them with expectations, and they never for once appreciate them...is that love or poison.
To be the hero, I say no, if it takes being the villain to teach someone how to treat people better/right, how to handle their own life, how to respect boundaries, how to carry their own weights, then you can kindly go ahead to paint me wicked, it's a free world. I accept whatever name you call me...mean, wicked, bad....I accept.. I choose to stop answering calls at midnight, I stopped explaining myself, I reduce showing up, I set boundaries....and many more..I changed, yes I did, because I already outgrew shrinking and fitting in to your taste.
They never knew it wasn't easy to walk away, I wasn't happy to say no, I wasn't comfortable as I wasn't fitting into families expectations.... All those are guilt that almost swallowed me when I choose this path of rest. But I have too, at the end of the day, I would still be the one they will throw the question at...what have you been able to do, what have you achieved and all, while skipping the part where you have been doing everything for them. I stopped setting myself on fire just to keep others warm.
Of a truth, being the villain won't just teach, but also give you peace, not the type that people give to you, but that which you grant yourself. Sincerely, I have coped so much, I have fit in so well and I have bend so much that I can't recall how straight felt like. A stop has been put to all of those....I don't do them no more.
Also, unlike being the hero where you owe people an explanation and all, as a villain you don't follow their script, you don't fit in, you stop performing, you stop explaining and all, even when am being misjudge and they call me selfish, I don't even bother, I don't start running around to fix things I didn't break... just so to be the good guy.
Villains are not always evil, they are just tired of choking in their own silence. Villains love and care, they are the best, just they often have to leave before they lose themselves. Well, I don't know, am doing my best though, and of a truth, I can't satisfy everyone, even if am being the hero, so why not be the villain and run things and have peace, I was born to live not to be liked.
History can go ahead and pen anything down, people aee free to whisper and judge, but remember that being a villain doesn't mean one is wicked. I am just choosing myself In a world that taught me to be somebody else.
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