This is where a lot of y'all will probably find me weird, but truth is I can find joy from little things. Some years ago I remember bragging to my friends that I could never get bored being alone, it was mainly because I am always soliloquising and living in my fantasy world, enjoying the stories I tell myself and finding happiness in the fact that I am alone and free. But now I think about it, it was just me saying I do not have anyone who I hold so dear that life is meaningless without. But immediately I had such a person in my life I began to understand the true definition of boredom.
But then again this doesn’t mean I no longer soliloquise, it just means I do it thinking about one person continually. Now that you have read this you can obviously label me bored whenever I’m in that state. Although I hardly get bored because I’m always working, and when I’m not working, I’m usually too tired to work, so you will find me looking for ways to relieve stress, not because I completely have nothing doing, but because I have decided to take a break and relieve myself of the day's stress.
But then again, sometimes, games and movies are not enough to quench the boredom, and I find myself thinking about one person who is wherever she is doing whatever she’s doing. It’s so funny how life works though, I guess that’s just the beauty of life. I would spend hours reminiscing in a loop where I’m with that special one, it’s just us and no one else. Sometimes it gets tiring, especially when something distracts me and brings me back to the reality of my current predicament. Sometimes the feeling becomes overwhelming but then again, what can I do? A lot of the time, I just sleep and continue the fantasy in my dreams.
By the way, I do not just soliloquise about love, I also soliloquy about being Captain Nigeria and a lot of other future impossible things like winning Nigeria Idol and American Idol with the voice of Celin Deon. Y’all are probably thinking how does a full grown ass man think about these things… I say life is too short to spend 24 hours thinking about my problems. Funny how I end up writing great scripts and fiction stories after having my moments, and a lot of those times I’ve found big weird ideas that worked 85% of the time after coming out from my fantasy land. So yeah that is how I spend my boredomness.
