When I think about the holidays coming, there is one thing on my mind, that one thing is going home to spend time with my family, I do not have any other plans.... I am not thinking about going on a vacation or visiting places.... I am not even asking for too much, I just want to be home with my people, that is all I want, I mean it with my whole heart.
Since March I have been away from my family, I went to Abuja to continue my education, it was a decision I had to make because I wanted to move on with my life , further my education and create better opportunities for myself and my children, I know why I came here and what I am trying to achieve.. that does not mean being away from home has been easy.
Sometimes we make decisions because we know they are necessary even when those decisions come with a lot of pain, that is how I feel about this journey, I came to Abuja with something in mind.. I also left behind the people who make home feel like home to me.
Honestly it breaks my heart...
There are days when I just wish I could wake up in the morning see my family around me hear their voices laugh over things and enjoy those ordinary moments we sometimes take for granted, sometimes it is not about doing anything special,just being in the space with the people you love can mean so much.
Being away has made me appreciate family time more, before now I might not have understood how much I would miss the things that come with being at home.. but now I understand that sometimes the greatest happiness is simply sitting with my family , sharing a meal , talking about life and knowing that my loved ones are right there with me.
As a mother being away from family comes with its kind of pain, there is much that goes through my mind especially when I think about my children and the moments I am missing , I remind myself that I am here for a reason, this education is part of what I'm trying to build for our future, still knowing why I am away does not make the distance hurt any less.
Will I be able to enjoy the holidays ? Honestly I cannot say for sure, there are responsibilities to think about , school matters to consider and other things that life keeps throwing at us. I cannot pretend that everything is easy or that getting home will happen without challenges.
I am hopeful tho.... If there is one thing I am looking forward to , it is the opportunity to go home, i want to hug my loved ones , spend time with my family and feel that warmth I have been missing since March.
That is my holiday wish. .....Nothing complicated, nothing much, I just want to go home, sometimes happiness is not, about having everything you want, sometimes it is simply being where your heart longs to be, now my heart longs for home.
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