I am living with the beautiful Abbi. Whom is disabled and needs assistance with every aspect to her everyday needs. Now she as I have learned in the ten years we have been together she is very clever. She has grown socially in her time with me. We work on manners and body control together.
Some have wondered why I do what I do. Why I would not put Abbi into the care systems available like nursing care homes etc...
Well to tell the truth I think about it often. Then I think God gave us this path and we shall follow it. We are together happy and healthy by most standards. Even with the loss of income from my own earning. The lack of money is not the biggest impack on our lives.
The biggest thing I find hard to handle is the perception I feel from others who think my cause is harmful some how to myself or Abbi.
We have survived not by our own will but by Gods will.
I had a visitor yesterday. She knows us from the Veterans of Foreign Wars (VFW). She had never visited before at our home.
She brought Abbi a belated Birthday gift. We visited while I feed Abbi.
She asked if Abbi liked to be fed her meals.
We said, No Abbi does not want her meals always.
She asked why I give them if she does not want the meal.
My answer was. I have to feed her or she will get sick and I could go to jail.
Now am I wrong to give up things in my life to care for a gift from God that is my Abbi now?
The people who try to guide me into letting go of Abbi make me think. Which may be good and may not thinking to much can be bad.
Is it crazy to follow a path that is a bit difficult or not crazy.
Time will tell I will continue to take the best care of Abbi as I am given this ability from God.
I may not recieve a reward in this life at this time.
Unless Abbi is the reward and then I am the winner today.
Love to all
