Today for breaking my fast I had a fried egg, I was tempted to eat two of it but again I am too paranoid about getting too much phosphorus in my body even though I will be taking a phosphorus binder for it.
I also had craved for some salted fish, again I couldn't eat more than one because it doesn't taste right for me or just maybe I was only using a spoon too eat it.
Then a hefty amount of rice to wash it all down. I needed to have a thinned-out coffee for the reason that it helps me swallow my food and wash away the bored taste buds in the process.
It also helped me in eating my meal with some fermented rice and fish, the colored pink gruel in a small bowl. I do not like this type though because it is not sour enough for my taste as well. I just needed a stronger tasting one because of my corrupted taste buds.
Now at least I was able to get some protein from the egg, from the salted fish not much, and then praying that what I ate gave me at least 200 calories which I know is not enough or will ever be for my 2,000 calorie needs for this day.
But I could not force myself to eat really with a kind of appetite that I have it doesn't happen. So I just have to eat whenever I had the urge so I have to really space out my meal longer and wait until my body screams for food. So I will never gain weight, maybe if God wills it then it will happen. May God have mercy on me. God bless you all.
