Got a haircut a couple days ago. What a refreshing feeling. I mean when you lket your hair and beard grow out to a point you look like a homeless ragamuffin, well even a little touch up is an improvement. I went with a nice 0-3 inch military style cut for old time sake and kept the beard, but had it trimmed down a lot. I felt like a new man.
It's funny how a small change like a haircut can change our outlook on things. My spirits have been raised, I felt better about myself. Things have just felt better all around since.
The last few months, small changes is what I've been trying to make. Walking twice a week, then three times a week, now five times. Although I am not supposed to yet, I occasionally get out and drive down the road a mile to the gas station and store to grab something. About once a week, I have been making it a point to meet with someone for coffee, breakfast or lunch to get away from the house. I plan to increase each of these things more and more over time in small increments.
Reading books is something that I am enjoying once again. Reconnecting with my old veterans group after months of being absent is something I did two days ago. Small incremental steps.
On the opposite side of the coin, un-scoial media has been reduced in my life. I started by deleting X, it was such a cesspool. The next thing I did was deleting all the negative Nancies on Farcebook I could at once. Then I limit my time to only a few minutes a day on it. The only reason I still keep FB is because it is how I stay in touch with old family members and Marine friends. I also deleted almost all my Discord servers which where a time suck.
Another thing that I am working on is eliminating the negative self talk. Spending many sleepless hours in my head allows me to think about some dumb shit I;ve done in my life. Some of it really dumb. That results in a lot of self loathing if I do not put it in check. There ismuch more in my life to be proud of that I have accomplished and that is what I have been trying to focus on during those times instead.
Right now it is about 3:15am and another sleepless night. That is okay though, because I have filled it with reading one of my books, putting out what I hope are postive vibes on Hive and thinking about who I want to hang with this week and what I want to get done. I can always nap later.
One of the biggest things I have overcome is that I no longer dwell much on my health, mental or physical, challenges. Nor do I care what people might think of me because of them.
In the end F&%K em, I got a new haircut!
Hope you all have a good week.
Thanks for reading,
Joe
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