Back in 2011, I would quietly slip out of my room in the middle of the night, sit on the balcony, and shed hot tears. I was going through a heartbreak, a pain inflicted on me by my first love, that moving on felt almost impossible.
We all have different ways of getting over heartbreak. I chose hard work; I work tirelessly all day, speaking only when necessary. This approach worked during the day, but there was no remedy for the dark room at night. Once I am alone and Idle, her thoughts creep in, and the tears flow freely... The memories we shared were haunting me.
No one knew what I was going through; how would they know? When I didn't share. They just knew I liked to be on my own, and I get angry easily. The pains I bottled in were too much that little things pissed me off, so I kept my distance from everyone, I just go to work, eat, and sleep...
I fell in love with that life of solitude, the pain became part of me, and the heartbreak lingered for years, not because it had to, but because I was not ready to move on. I shut everyone down and grieved in silence; not even my family knew I was heartbroken.
Time saved me, I felt better as weeks turned to months. My heart was ready to move on, but my mind chained me to her memory, which made it difficult for me to let down the wall I put around me, shielding others from reaching me but then someone forced her way in, the wall could not hold her and in the end, I let her in and that was the end of my heartbreak.
Why Did I share my heartbreak story
Some people are going through their first heartbreak right now, and they feel miserable, they don't want to let go, their heart is hurting, and they are losing themselves.
I have been there just like my story above explained, and if I am half of who I am back then, I won't have suffered years thinking and hurting for someone busy enjoying her life; it was not worth it.
I shared my story so others can learn from it and encourage them.
You are busy shedding hot tears and going crazy while the person who rejected or broke up with you is smiling in his sleep
You shut down others while they enjoy themselves with others.
You are the only one still holding onto the memories you shared
You can try to move on within 1 month or extend it to 2 years; you will be the one to suffer it...
When someone breaks your heart, don't shut down others, cos that is your fastest way of forgetting the person who breaks your heart.
Stay away or Avoid dark rooms!, it won't help your situation, it will only bring memories of that person.
Lastly, it is unfair for you to carry the memories of two; let it go and create sweeter memories with those who care.
Just call me Burl.
I am a professional gamer, motivational speaker and a crypto enthusiast
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God exists, I am a living testimony
Giving up is not an option, every hustler has a payday
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