I'm stuck in a rut, not even being bothered to shower or shave, I've lost my motivation for even the simplest things, for things that bring me joy. I say to myself that I'll snap out of it tomorrow but wind up sitting, listening to music all day.
I tripped into schizophrenia last December and wound up having to sign on for benefits, they upped my medication and I've piled on the weight as a result. Nothing is worth being psychotic, so the stress from work is something I'm going to be steering clear of, I've had this condition for 8-9 years now, the episodes are getting shorter but much more intense.
During my last psychotic break I wound up with a fork up against my eye and as soon as the vision went black I backed out of popping my right eye out and just cried.
So I'm dealing with a few things, but I'm never normally this lazy, I've become used to not leaving the flat and doing absolutely nothing.
Exercise I know would help, easier said than done to get up and do though.
Practicing my guitar would help, but I've lost all interest.
I've given up cigarettes this past week so that perhaps is part of the cause to my current state of being.
Rant somewhat over, I hope you are dealing with life a lot better than myself.