Time to shift my focus
Although it's been coming for a while, I had a bit of trouble actually making the steps to change my focus to what's truly important and worth my time. I'm not a quitter and when things don't go according to plan, I don't tend to give up right away but remain focused, maybe sometimes hoping for a miracle to happen, which in some cases, will not come. There's only so much I can change myself, and there's only so much time I have each day. I think with school period starting in a week, it was time to actually sit down and be honest to decide what deserves my attention every day and what not.
Super awesome work
Since some months, besides my work for CineTV, I also get to do work for a very cool project that's something I enjoy spending time to work on a lot. Not only do I get to work with like-minded people, but also get mentoring by someone that knows what's up and knows how to get stuff done. I've been very grateful for that from the very beginning. The tasks I get to do are cool and I need to get my creative hat on, which is totally up my sleeve and therefore I love the job.
Noise
The past month there has been noise though, not only from real life bureaucrazy things out of my control, but also online stuff that are not worth my time and effort anymore. I have had trouble for a month or so to remain focused and not let noise (may it be from A or B) distract me to the point that I lose all my focus and creativity due to things I can't even change. I hate it and I felt guilty about it as well, which of course, didn't help me to find back my creativity. I knew it was only me that could change this, I had to break the cycle myself.
Change of mindset
A few days ago, I decided to break my patterns and start truly prioritizing things in the way that I should, and not in the way that I have been doing for too long now. I started working on other things that are important to me, even though I still notice that my creativity is a bit locked, I actively work on unlocking it so that I force myself to focus on that what matters instead of dwelling on things that soon belong to the past anyway. I've made nice progress, even though my work is not done, I have some decent drafts and designs ready that just need a bit more love and final touch. I can start feeling it coming back again and I with that, I immediately know that I'm doing the right thing. I'm getting a bit closer every day.
Working with the right people
In the past, I've worked a lot with people that had the wrong mindset. Sometimes, to the point that it drove me mad, and I could lay awake for hours thinking about things that I could not change. It's their mindset that has to change, not mine. I could only let go, and hope for things to change. Usually, it doesn't happen, but I like to remain hopeful that it will.
Currently, it's time for me to let go of some things as well, and see what happens. I will divide my time and creativity to the projects that bring me happiness, like-minded people as well as feeling inspired and learn from people that are willing to teach me something. It's time for a huge change, and I'm 100% sure that in a month from now, my daily routine looks so different and makes me much happier. I can't wait until I realize that I've been inspired a lot every day and my mindset has turned completely. Change is incoming :)
Without mentioning any names, thank you to you if you are one of these people that I get to work with, learn from, work for or that dedicates time to teach / guide me on this journey! I appreciate you!