Hello and welcome to my blog, so if I am to be honest, when the distractions end, the first thing I hear is my own thoughts.
And then trust me, that can be both a good thing and also a bad thing, most days, life just gets really noisy, there is always something demanding attention, it is either my phone is ringing, messages are coming in, social media is doing what social media does, and now before I know it, the whole day has passed without me having a proper conversation with myself.
So that is why I sometimes intentionally step away from all the distractions, I put my phone aside, I find a spot, I plug in my earphones and I just listen to music, not because I want to escape from my life but because I want to slow everything down for a moment.
When all the noise disappears I start hearing the things I have been pushing aside, sometimes it is my worries, I start thinking about things I need to do, my goals that I have not reached yet , my mistakes that I have made and my situations that I wish had gone differently, those thoughts are usually the loudest at first because they have been waiting for my attention all day.
Then after a while, something interesting happens.
The noise inside my head starts settling down, i begin to think more clearly, i start seeing things from different angles, problems that felt huge during the day suddenly don't seem as impossible anymore, sometimes I even realize that I have been stressing over things I can't control.
When the distractions end I also hear reminders.
Reminders of the things that truly matter to me.
My children, my future,
The kind of life I am trying to build the person I am trying to become. Those are the thoughts that keep me moving forward when things are not going exactly how I planned.
I think that is one reason I value those moments so much. They help me reconnect with myself. In a world where everybody has an opinion and everybody wants my attention it is easy to forget what I actually think and feel.
The funny thing is that silence is not always comfortable, sometimes it forces me to face things I have been avoiding, sometimes it brings up questions I do not have answers to yet, i still think it is worth it because growth rarely happens when I am constantly distracted.
For me those moments of reflection are like pressing a button, I do not have a special meditating way, I do not have a routine, most of the time it is just me, some music and my thoughts.
And honestly, that is enough,
because when the distractions end , I hear the voice that often gets drowned out by everything else, I hear my thoughts, even though my own thoughts do not always tell me what I want to hear they usually tell me what I need to hear.
That is why I keep making time for those moments, they remind me where I have been, where I am going and most importantly who I am, beneath all the noise of my life and my own thoughts.
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