From Me to Me, are you still questioning?

(Taken by me)

Dear Me,

I hope this letter finds you well, and I hope you are living the best of your live. First of all, I would like to congratulate on surviving another year, or maybe your thoughts have changed by now. You may not see this world as chaotic anymore, but judging from my - actually our - position, I find it hard to believe. Life is indeed beautiful, yet it is chaotically beautiful. The moment I am writing this letter, this summer season is killing me. And do not worry, I know the future self, does think of migrating to a colder area, will still be here. So, I advice you to read it during the winter season.

Now, when I think of me being you, I wonder how are you doing? What are you doing? And more importantly, have you found the answers for those nihilistic thoughts? Have you made any progress? Does this world seem meaningful to you now, or are we still continuing with the religius notion? Either way, I hope you still laugh at your own terrible thinking and still find yourself getting lost in random thoughts while starring at the open sky.

You know, I was meant to fill this letter with optimistic goals. "I hope you have achieved this." "I hope you have purchased PS5." "I hope you have learnt to say NO by now." But then I remembered something about pressent version of mine, that has learned the hard way of life. Because, for this version, life has never followed my plans. Every time I carefully draw a plan, and life smirks, giving me a completely differed pathway.

So instead, let me ask you a few questions.

Did you become kinder? To the world, and most importantly to yourself? Have you ourcome the societal ways of living? Have you decided the ultimate job for yourself, or are you going to be Golden Boy (reference from an anime)?

Did you cintinue writing? Not because it pays well or because thousands of people read your words. But because, writing helps you with escapism, and you know that we love discussing lifely stuff.

What do you think of hope now? Is it still a neutral emotion for you?

So, let me hope that you kept reading newspapers. Yes, I know it sounds elderly, and everyone saying that newspapers are dying and social media iss the future. Do you still pay extra money to the newspaper guy, so that he keeps on doing his work?

And what about our love - football. Have you overcome all those legends - Ronaldo, De Bryune, Neymar, Modric, Messi - retiring? Judging by the present, I hope it is still making you irrationally emotional. One important thing: I hope you still celebrate goals like a child; you still tease Ronaldo fans in the group, with the same Messi's pic. We spend too much of adulthood pretending to be serious. Do not lose the few things that make you forget your age.

What books are you reading nowaday? Is fictional still your favorite read?

Now, about that competitive exam. Did you clear it? If yes, I am proud of you. Not because you have passed, but because you tried once again, even aftet so many doubts. If you did not, we do not care.

Hey, what about her? Do you still miss her the same? Because, right now, it still hurts the most. I cannot even talk about it. So, I am just going to use escapism. I hope you find something to overcome this. One more thing: I am currently listening to "Taare" by Farak. The guy literally nailed it with the lyrics and storyline. Do listen to it, it reminds me of our story. And you know, he ended with such a beautiful quote from Franz Kafka: "There are evenings when the whole world seems misaligned. To be loved then is a miracle." Guess what, we both are miacle-less. Hehehe!

Moreover, forget about he sad part, I also hope you stayed curious. Keep asking uncomfortable and weird questions. Keep reading books that challenge your opinions instead of only confirming them. Keep changing your mind, because of your felxibility, when the evidence confirms it. There is no shame in being wrong.

And please, do not become one of those people who think they have figured out everything. Those people stop learning. Stay a little confused, a little humble, a little delusional.

Oiiii! Funny how only you will be pronouncing it right.

I am sorry for finishing Bleach and watching Dune this year, lol. You will not be able to enjoy it first hand. So, good luck with something new.

And now, when I was going to end it; I just realized something. I have asked you far more questons than I have given you encouragement. Perhaps, most people write letter to their future selves filled with optimistic promises. I, on the other hand, wrote an investigational report.

But again, I know you will love it more than anyone else. Because that is exactly who we are.

We have always been more interested in questions than answers. Because, from the experiences, answers are not as joyful as constant struggle for them. Whether it is life, religion, politics, football, literature or any universal stuff, we somehow manage to turn every answer into another question. And the cycle continues. Perhaps that is our blessing or perhaps it is our curse. Good luck in deciding, because I am not giving it a thought.

I also hope you never lose your ability to change. And, if you disagree with some of my thoughts, it is better. It means you kept thinking instead of blindly following the younger version of yourself.

And if, by any chance, life seems difficult to you. Remember what your younger version have said: life has infinite ways of humbling us, but we do not care.

So wherever you are, I just hope you wake up tomorrow with the same stubborn belief that there is still something worth looking foward to.

Last words, if you find this letter cringy. I'mma find a doraemon, and kill you with my own hands. Do not lose this side of your, I refuse you to do so.

Take care of yourself.

See you again.

Present Me.

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Peace 🕊

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