Who is Sis, why aren't you told to come in? "Mom saw me talking at the door of the house, with her who had stopped in my life.
"My friend is ma'am, just a minute." I lied, even though I was reluctant to tell Fajar to come in because I was too hateful and actually I didn't expect to see him again.
"Let you not want to be with me Naf. If you are my destiny, we will reunite later. That I still hope with you. "I was silent when Fajar declared that with the sad face I always missed.
What we have been through together is a beautiful memory that will never be erased, even though your betrayal has already hurt my feelings Fajar. You are one of the best parts of my life.
"Come on, Dawn, I'm busy a lot of work that is more important to me now than having to see you like this in front of me. What has happened let it be an experience for me and you can leave now. "I was unable to withstand the tightness in my chest to see his face which implies regret. I've forgiven him, but I won't be able to accept you again.
When I smell your lie, I feel no need to relate to you. What you do might be part of my mistakes so I don't have to cry when I see you intimate with other women.
I am a little indifferent to you, I'm too busy pursuing my ambition. I'm selfish, really. You need someone who can accompany you when you want to sit together in the park like another couple. But I can't be like that, I just waste time if I have to do the thing you want. I also don't like to be arranged to follow your will. Even though I am not willing to lose you, but I must be willing to let you go.
At that time, I attended an organizational meeting at the school I was currently exploring in one of the rooms. It is located not far from the Dawn class. I was in class XI-2 and she was in class XI IPS-1 so we were not classmates. We got acquainted when participating in the Student Council when we were in class XI exactly 3 years ago.

"Hi, you're from the Student Council right?"
"Yes, you too right?"
He nodded, then reached out "Dawn of Grace."
"Nafisah," I said, replying to his hand.
Said that person might be first love, when you first met you immediately assessed someone. I do not know, I forgot exactly how clear after meeting that day I and he often met because our class was close together and Fajar often met me during breaks. At first I didn't like it because he liked to look for attention in front of me. But over time I was lulled by his jokes, liked his smile, and I didn't feel like losing it.
About 3 months we got to know each other, finally Fajar sent messages via chat on social media
"I want to be honest, you can hate me but I really like you. Will you be my girlfriend now and my wife soon? "
I was shocked to see the message when I opened it, 5 hours after the message was sent to me. "Did he send this message? What should I answer. "
The next day, he approached me while giving something. A small pink box with red ribbon decoration. "What is this?"
"Just open it, you've read my message right?"
After I opened it, a ring that I told him. As I passed in the shop, I told him I wanted to have a ring like that. It turns out he bought it for me. I really didn't expect him to give me.
"Will you be mine now and forever?" Again I was silent when I heard his voice.
"Yes ..." Only that, because I was stunned to see his excited face got an answer from me.
Dawn was still standing in front of me, hoping the door of my heart was still open for him. I'm sorry, but the feeling of tightness in my chest, the wound in my heart still hasn't healed. Until the empty space you have visited is still tightly locked. I was unable to open it even though I had to hold back tears. I can't accept you yet.
"Well Naf, if you still hate me I accept that. Forgive me, forgive me for hurting your heart with my stupidity. There is a gift, it might be the last for you, but if God destined us, I hope I can be the best for you. Don't forget all of our memories of Naf, so we can recall when we met. "
Fajar gave me a blue box with white lines, then stepped heavy. I saw the look on his face, his sad eyes, and his back then disappeared in my sight.
I still stand. My tears have dried up, my heart is still untreated, my mind is empty either because of what I have become like this. I looked at the gift of Dawn in my hand that read
"To My Sunshine, My Star, My Nafisah."
I opened the lid slowly, and I saw it was a small red photo album. When it opened, it contained photos of me while I was in high school. Precisely when I was with him, I knew he liked the world of photography but I didn't know that he was diligently taking pictures of me quietly. I looked at all the shots that were beautifully packaged in a beautiful album.
"Thank you Fajar Grace for all your love for me."

At the end of the photo, he slipped a paper that read "Hi My Girl! I'LL BE MISS YOU. ”
I smiled reading the writing "I 'll miss you, too."
2 years later.
I heard from my old friend in high school, he told me by telephone that Fajar died of a severe illness he had suffered from a long time ago. I paused, speechless, unable to speak, my heart didn't feel like a beat. Then I sighed and immediately asked where his family was now.
The next day I visited the funeral home, his family welcomed me because they had known me long ago. They already knew that my relationship with Fajar was over and at that time Fajar had Leukemia. Very badly, I never asked about the situation at that time. I am truly sorry. It was only there that I couldn't hold back tears and when I received the photo album it was the last time I met her.
"Dawn, destiny is not for us. Forgive me for being too selfish for you. Even though I know that you are very sincere for me. I will continue to pray for you. "
I just realized your love, now that you have no hope for us to come back together we have disappeared with the plan of the Divine.