I welcome you to my blog. Over the years one thing I have come to realize is that we as humans only see the good sides and the value of what we had when it is no longer there, and somehow we are forced to just hang onto memories and use them as consolation. I am also one of those who did not see the value of what I had until it was gone; so many things I just did not rate, but now I wish I could go back to the time when I had them so I can comfortably enjoy them and enjoy the moment before it passes and becomes a thing of the past.
As a child growing up, it was one of the things I looked forward to, like my life depended on it. I had adults all around, and for that reason, I really wanted to grow up. The adults in my neighborhood could come back home whenever they wanted, while my mom won't let us stay past 7:30pm outside with other kids in the neighborhood. That alone really hurt me because that is actually when the gathering starts to get even more fun, but it always gets interrupted. I really wanted to grow up too so I could have two meats served to me instead of one; trust me, I did not know all these adults were paying the price for all the luxuries they were getting, and they did deserve it.
Then I had no worries at all; everything I needed and wanted, I just let my parents know, and it was provided for me. All I had to do was follow their instructions, which sometimes interfered with my playtime, and that alone made me impatient so I could be free from my parents, but trust me, I am now free and paying the price of adulthood, and I can tell you for free that I really want to go back to the days where all I had to do was follow their instructions at all times, and then they got to solve all my problems for me.
Today, I have all the time; I can decide when I want to go home and when I want to leave the streets, but the responsibilities that come with that actually outweigh the freedom. The freedom and the responsibilities are not equal at all, and I wish I had been told to just enjoy the days with little or no freedom and also with no responsibility at all before the days where you have all the freedom you want but with so much responsibility coming knocking.
Not valuing what we have until it is no more is a common human trait; we all have one or two experiences, and in my opinion, I think that is just life's way of teaching us a lesson to always see the value of what we have and not wait until it is gone before we do. Many people don't value the position they are in right now, but if they lose it, they will see that it was better than not being in the position at all.
