Winter is my favorite season, I never imagined it would betray me like this. This year's winter wasn't pleasant for me at all. Got sick, didn't get to see fog, couldn't enjoy the winter foods or travel properly. Well, winter is going away, already getting that feeling of saying bye to the winter.
But the irony of life, something terrible happened to me today. There were a lot of days when I woke up specifically to go out and enjoy the dense fog of winter. Always a fascination works for me while walking through the winter fog. Seeing things disappearing at a little distance, you too get disappeared into it. Have you ever had a walk with someone special in this environment? They are so amazing. A straight long road filled with dense fog and shivering cold is all we need to feel each other. Ah, memories! Btw this winter nothing of this sort happened nor I had wanted, all I craved for was the dense fog. I wanted to walk amidst it, see myself vanishing, but I didn't get to enjoy fog this winter.
Let's move to the irony, it's almost 7.30 am today and I am out for the weekly Bazar for my family. Yeah, I am a responsible boy now, I handle all of this outdoor stuff. Depending on the weather over the last few days, I took a half sleeves t-shirt and a full sleeve shirt on top of that and went out. Kill me, it's too cold outside, I felt that I made a mistake by coming out this way. Always I went out with warm clothes and ended up feeling hot in the end, and today I got backfired. You know what, I saw fog today, yeah fog. In this whole season, I haven't found any trace of it and here it is unexpectedly, laughing at me, by the time I could feel the extreme necessity of the warm clothes I was far from home. When searching it was nowhere near me and now with lost hopes, I am out unarmed, and here are they, literally laughing at me.
Recently I am feeling like whatever I choose ends up backfiring me with an ultimate surprise. Too many things going on, things are not balanced, unpleasant ones took control over my life. Sometimes I would feel so low that I just switch off all the electronics around me and close my eyes to see the darkness, nothing else, no guilt or false desires, just a blank imagination. Come on, don't see me as a depressed soul, am not like that. Me just a wanderer who sometimes gets lost otherwise no matter what the situation is, am always in a lightening mood. Last night, I was dead asleep by 12.30 am, and today waiting for a storm over the nature that seems to be incoming anytime soon. Drizzling with strong breezes and the sound is kinda loud, a storm is incoming. Who loves to watch storms? Personally, I don't.