The always present compromises

It's been years since I had to call someone boss officially, and honestly I never thought that would ever happen again. Now I'm fully aware that my ego is speaking at the moment, but I'm just being sincere for whatever that's worth. You see, there is this idea I've had for the longest of times that no matter what, you are not supposed to take steps back, not even to rest, but truthfully I'm coming to grips with the notion that the line of thinking is flawed to say the least.

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What is making me scratch my head is the timing, what a time of the year to walk back into retail. This time however, I won't be pursuing managerial positions, I don't want them, not anymore. The retail system is quite enslaving and I don't want to be one of the ones holding the proverbial whip anymore.

You see, to get your salesforce to do good, to kick some butt, you have to be able to serve them the kool-aid. Tell them how if they apply themselves they can one day go up the corporate ladder and be someone, but none of that verbal jargon will escape my mouth because I don't believe in it one bit, and I guess I'm not that good at faking it.

Probably by the weekend I will be walking back into a store, looking at the walls and wondering how the boomerang just had to come back once more. Sales, always sales. I'm good at it, I like people, I like instruments, I play a ton of them, it's not hard for me to be excited about them because I love them but at the same time, I've grown to dislike consumerism so much, I don't know how to put the puzzle back together.

But.... here we go again... Recalibrating