I want this moment to last all day. The coffee is fresh,the pain pills and doing their job and the ice pack is easing the rest of the pain away. And to top it off, the cat is allowing me to relax after I filled his food dish... (try as i might this dang photo won't load right)
In a way I am grateful for hurting my knee and being laid up for two weeks. This is forcing me to sit down and stop moving so damn much, stop doing all those little things that seem like they need to be done right now but are, in reality, little pockets of time sucking tasks that take away from me simply breathing and engaging in the those things that I previously took for granted.
It has only been two days so far since my surgery. In that time I have written more then I have in the previous month. Learned more about Steem, block-chains, investing in crypto. I have started playing Steem monsters, took shorts naps (something nearly impossible to do with a hyped up five year old in the house) listened to my own thoughts and ideas again. I have learned to ask for help for the little things. Watched movies with my sons and have committed myself to engaging and connecting more on Steem and less with the likes of You-tube,twitter, and netflix. I have discovered new people to follow on Steem and have allowed many negative thoughts to drift away and not return to my mind. I've sat and listened to the birds, wind chimes and traffic flow in through the window.
I have also decided to ditch the bitcoin I held on the robinhood app. I am going to buy it back through coin base and from there transfer it to an offline wallet. I really do not have much yet but I plan on slowly adding to it. Robinhood app was fun but if I am to really buy into Bitcoin then I need better place to trade.
I’ve rediscover books I loved, blogs that have sent my life in better directions and camped out on the couch with my son sharing a movie I loved back when I was his age.
There are down sides of course. I can’t walk with out crutches, I can’t drive for at least another month. I can’t run and wrestle with my son. And I have to wear a large knee brace that forces my leg strait for at least two months. And perhaps the worst is how long it takes to simply go to the bathroom.
but I’m actually looking forward to what the next two weeks will hold for me. What else can I accomplish by simply sitting,experimenting and working on ideas. This could be the beginning of a whole new life for me and my family. The first steps in creating the life I want as opposed to allowing life to be decided for me.
This is also an opportunity to improve my writing. I have noticed a decline in the way I write, the words I use and styles and mannerisms. I feel like I have allowed myself to become lazy as a writer. not fully expanding on thoughts and ideas. perhaps the next two weeks will be a crash course is re-finding my muse and the ability to craft together my thoughts and words and ideas into something others will enjoy reading.
yup, much has been accomplished but I have a long way to go. so i am going to grab another coffee and dance on the key board until something great stands out and then I will share it with all of you.
until then
meditations
