Did you ever question everything in your life then one day you get the answer?
It looks like today I got mine. It took me a while for my stupid brain to catch up with this revelation. Ever since my life went downhill, I tried to explore another ways. Perhaps my way of life is wrong, so I need to see and listen others. Well, I did. Turned out I was not really good at filtering them. I became more unhappy, unsatisfied and dying each day not living the way I want to live my life.
I found this online and if you know the source, feel free to tell me. I'll give the credit when it's due.
I thought others' way of life is more saint, righteous, perfect, aesthetic, just and will make me content if I follow it. Turns out, I am wrong. Each day, my self and my happiness fade away. I know that my way of life may not be the best but it is what makes me happy.
This moment is the right time for me to live the way I want my life to be. For what its worth, I would take any day becoming myself than living up to someone's else standard and projection.
I am genuinely happy becoming a scattered brain, creative monkey, a night owl, avid learners, dorky, messy, weird, and random. It's myself and will become a part of me. So,no more hiding and I'll just be myself even others hate it. Mac