It's normal to feel guilty, this is even proof that you still have a heart. People who have "no heart" find it difficult to feel guilty anymore. However, don't let guilt take up too much of your time.
Did you know that this is actually a very worrying "soul virus". A virus that has unknowingly attacked many people, whether it is obvious or not. Disappointment in oneself never comes suddenly, but is the result of a process, a process in which a person first experiences disappointment in others.
Be careful, disappointment in other people that drags on will turn into disappointment in yourself.
At first we sort of blame other people. "Why is he like that? How is he evil? Why is he like this to me?" This is still at the level of being disappointed with other people. Pay attention when the problem is not resolved, then the mindset changes to something like this, "I think it's my fault, I'm the one who is too unlucky, I can't hope for it, I'm useless." This is actually very dangerous because it leads to disappointment with yourself, or a form of self-judgment.
Symptoms of people who have experienced disappointment in themselves are starting to become apathetic. Apathy is indifferent, cold towards everything that is good, he doesn't want to do that anymore. Those who usually want to study have started not studying or reducing their study hours, those who usually often go out with friends now no longer want to. Tends to close himself off, stay at home. Those who usually take courses now no longer want to take courses, because they have started to not respect themselves anymore.
Therefore, apart from forgiving others, we must also forgive ourselves. With an understanding that what has happened must happen. With whatever power we have, we cannot return to the original state or what is usually called Control Z. Life is not like that, what has happened has happened. You remember a statement that not a single strand of hair falls without God's permission. This means that when you read this part, it is with God's permission. That now you are in debt, you are sick, you are at enmity with someone, it is all by God's permission.
Moreover, for example, you have felt that you have harmed someone, you feel that you have hurt someone and because of that, that person's life is unlucky, their life becomes tormented, then we say: "Well... it's my fault, it's my fault, it's because of me. ..." OK, feeling guilty is natural and human but once again remember that nothing in this world happens without God's permission. Know that you are only "borrowed" by God to process you. So forgive yourself completely, completely, now and forever.
