It's all new, now it's recognised
Nothing has changed
The old view is a lie
I see it so clearly
I'm feeling so free
My eyelids have opened
I've found reality.
It's now time, to go upwards
Into this new world
Leave behind what I should
Drop the baggage
Pour a drink
Celebrate happiness
Don't stop to think.
But it dies, that great feeling
I crash to the ground
Fell straight from the ceiling
Now I'm deep in the dark
Go away
Your not welcome
Please Leave my park.
It's all new, now its recognised
So much has changed
Not sure what I was thinking
Or feeling
In the time I was blinking
My whole world
Fell apart.
This poem was written five years ago by myself whilst I was trying to research the illness with which I had recently been diagnosed. I was also trying to contend with the ongoing alterations to my medication whist trying to discover a combination that would suit me.
I spent a lot of time during this period of my life driving around these country lanes in Kent. Nature has a lot to be thanked for as it helped me gain a necessary amount of calmness, allowing me time to digest.