Many smart people have the tendency of optimising and managing everything that how many of them end up on a career that they don't actually enjoy.
That never really speaks very well but the end goal and the most important you will seek for professional success is to make a living of what you love. Once your daily life embodies your purpose, peace of mind and contentment will come to you very naturally.
You will be confident, you will attract confident people, you will build a head-to-head relationship and you will finally grasp what to expect at any moment in time, and that is our life as a lesbian.