An insatiable desire to improve my talent and an apology from the heart. 馃挅|| WeekendExperiences Week #168
That there are beautiful people from @WeekendExperiences, happy Sunday and I hope you are enjoying your day. Welcome to my participation this week #168, where I will be responding to the topics I find most interesting.
What were you doing at the moment when you felt most alive, passionate and fulfilled?
It is very common for me to be singing any song or humming melodies, sometimes I do it to lower stress and other times to practice my instrument (The voice), but the truth is that all my life I have been doing it because it is what I love to do and I enjoy the possibility of being able to show you my gift :)
I have had good and deep feelings while I have been singing, I like to compare them to what Jack had to feel while holding Rose by the waist in the and shouting "I'm the king of the world!" in Titanic.
I'm that kind of person who watches someone on the internet fulfilling their dream and I'm moved to the middle ground, the worse I get if it matches my personal dream (happens a lot).
Yes I would also like to have my moment but I'm not sure if I should let it all flow or push the possibilities to get it and I'm running out of time.
My singing for me is the weapon with which I defend my soul from all negative energy, and I know that there is still a long way to go, especially in my life but music has become something meaningful that goes beyond tastes and pleasures.
I have had some opportunities to make myself heard and I have enjoyed them but for lack of professionalism, constancy and dedication I have not managed to be recognized (I am working on it).
I know that soon I will be able to educate myself and prepare myself for my long awaited blossoming, I will make the necessary effort to bring out the excellent artist in me and I will be wise to face the various problems that may arise.
A single word has the power to sow an infinite caress or a wound of death. - Estefani Esp铆n
Who have you hurt, why and how have you felt since then? Would you make amends and why?
Throughout life we have hurt and we have also been hurt, sometimes unfairly and sometimes by misunderstandings but it always ends up hurting a lot. Like many I have dealt with terrible wounds that with time get stronger and/or weaker, I have also complained and have tangled my own ties more but it has been some time since I have thought about those I have hurt. It does not fill me with pride to have to mention my mother here as the second person I have hurt because she has been the one who has worried the most about me and suffered the most for my bad decisions.
For some time now my mind has been evolving and with it my being and my essence, being my mother she has obviously noticed this change but has not been able to process it properly which has led her to desperately miss this sensitive, innocent and funny version.
I have tried to explain to her but it hasn't quite worked as our communication and tolerance has failed lately and I don't intend to give up in the face of adversity.
But who I must apologize to for all the mistreatment, insults, abuse and lack of empathy is myself, I apologize for all the bad things, I know I have gone through a lot to get here, I know that like me many will feel identified and that is not bad :) I invite you to give yourself a good self hug, apologize for having hurt yourself so much and to give yourself the encouragement that you yourself recognize as a source of inspiration.
"The road is still infinite so it is not time to stop - JuanaVale".
Thank you for taking the time to read my participation and I wish you a good beginning of the week. Until next time, bye, bye.