They say people don't entirely have days where everything works out really well. They say there's good and bad days, and some days are better than the others, and honestly I actually agree to some extent. The second part of 2025 was absolutely great for me, but this hasn't been the same for 2026 so far.
I went from getting robbed of money I saved up for medical bills and family upkeep to making many horrible financial decisions. I think it'll call it what traders would call revenge trading. You know how you lose money and then you try to make it all back by making other financial decisions that are crazy?
That's exactly what I did and, it honestly didn't go well. It's been countless mistakes upon mistakes, and the more I look at myself approaching the bottom, I just continue risking and throwing hooks in a last ditch attempt to make a decent comeback, so that I don't drown. But.
So far it hasn't turned out well, and it's been honestly disturbing for me. Do I want to just throw in the towel? Well I may have thought about it properly, but it just feels like this might not be an option, as I don't have enough saved up for winter. I'm honestly referring to the crypto period and the "dump months" we have.
I've not been able to save enough, did that earlier, but lost everything, and honestly it's a very bad thing to lose a lot of money like that due to a smart contract hack, where I had my keys honestly saved, but don't understand what could have happened.
I've done a few power downs to keep myself afloat and have honestly been unable to salvage another gig to keep it all together and going. I've bought a few courses here and there, spent money and time doing research, but it hasn't paid off, and the boat just keeps sinking.
Sometimes I don't even sleep well anymore, and even some of the things I do in my leisure time, I can't even do them anymore because I honestly don't even have leisure time anymore, because I'm always so exhausted at the end of the day, that I cannot even stop to relax for one moment.
I guess this is the life of a hustler, and anyone who has been a hustler understands this life. It's legit like just existing to keep yourself afloat, you're screaming into a void, and the void just keeps getting empty and you're drowning inside it. It gets crazier everyday and I just honestly pick myself up everyday, keep putting in the work and just keep trying everyday.
I honestly don't know whether it'll work or not, because let's been honest, when you're going through series of rough patches, you're seriously going to have some negativity problems and you won't even understand why you can shake it off.
At the end of the day.....
I realized I've been ranting without really saying anything meaningful, or maybe it's actually meaningful, but I still cannot get myself to unravel myself down all the chaos and just pat myself on the back and encourage myself.
Anyway it's a lonely place, I don't know, but the Internet has been one giant hole of emptiness with people sharing stories you cannot relate to, or maybe because the stories are filled with lies, and they're not true enough for you to relate with them, or maybe people just lie well enough that their lies gets you so depressed, and you cannot even fathom what is true or what's a lie.
Whatever it is, the struggle of life is real, and the life of every legit hustler is not such a rosy story. Well, if you're a hustler and you're struggling to stay afloat, just continue to fight, you might lose the battle anyway, but just continue to fight because giving up means you'll end up very badly, even though you can still give it all and end up a a failure anyway