We slept in the same bed and couldn't talk. We sat up, looked at each other and said nothing. At the same time, inside me, I thought; how crazy is heartbreak, how someone can love someone so much, and at some point, a click, and now nothing... separation sucks. They hurt, whether you are still in love or not. You slept many nights and felt like your heart was broken. Like it was really alive, beating, telling you: what have you done to me? You're going on dates, and the first one will probably be a silly one. You'll talk about your ex. You'll find out the pain isn't over yet. Maybe you'll have sex soon. Maybe you won't. You'll feel strange touching another body. You will remember many things about the relationship and, in time, you will forget them. You will discover what went wrong between you. You'll notice that you've seen it, and you won't care. You'll want to call. You'll hate, you'll feel pain, you'll think the world is stupid. Your friends will tell you silly things like rainbows need sunlight and rain. You'll wonder what rainbow formation has to do with the emotional earthquake that runs through you. But you have to tell them, "Thanks for coming." You'll hear pitiful songs. You might even find the reggae lyrics to agree. You might guess: I hit rock bottom. Then you'll look down and realize that's not the case. There are other bottoms. there are more.
You can be very beautiful, or you can be very ugly. But you have to change. Trust me. Maybe you do something crazy like buy a ton of clothes you can't afford and don't want to wear. You go out a lot. You'll refuse to go out, a lot. You'll say love is a cheat. You'll never love anyone again. Or worse: you'll start dating someone you don't really love. Because you don't want to suffer.You'll know you're lying to yourself. Because you are healing. You're going to binge on chocolate. You'll spend the night without dinner. you'll cry in the bath. when you get up on the bus, at work, in the bathroom. Before going to sleep. You will discover that forgiveness is the only way to let go. One morning... really, one morning you will open your eyes and feel weird. You will touch your chest. Your heart will beat, calm down. keep listening to him. He was saying: Thank you. finished I'm ready to make you love me again anytime ❤
