This statement has almost got me crazy “Your younger ones are getting married”
I have endured that statement for quite a long time now. I was recently having a discussion with a friend who is my age mate and he said why are these young ones rushing into marriage and we that are of the same age don't even think of it? I replied probably because we have not gotten what we want and they have.
I have heard the statement “Marriage is a blessing.”
This statement means that marriage tends to bring all that was not there and if I can interpret my own conception I will say it will bring in some money bags that we have been chasing for a long time.
Hahaha, as much as people believe in this I still don't believe it can happen the way they presume it will.
The fear of bringing in a companion as a wife and not being able to fend properly for us both is what is still keeping me from doing what I know I must surely do.
Even though people see me as one who is capable of handling a wife and even children but right within me I know that it's not yet time as I have not attained my pick financially.
I don't want the word let's “MANAGE” In my married life, I don't want to manage food since we don't have enough of it, I don't want to manage the apartment where we will live since there is no money to get a better one, I don't want to manage clothes since we can't afford new ones. These are some of the paramount things needed in a family to make it happy and I don't want any of them to lack.
I will not be happy with myself seeing people I am suppose to make happy not been happy with the kind of life I provide for them, these are some of the reasons why people commit suicide in as much as I wouldn't want to die of guilt then I should make sure I am prepared.
I want to be done with all forms of managing in my single stage before proceeding to making me two and then three and maybe four.
I hate it when I see children hawking by the roadside simply because they want to help support the family financially. Children that should be in school learning, ohh please.
All these are what keeps the fear in me of going into this deal called marriage.
I wonder how a family of four manages to stay in a single room. I can't go with the discomfort, even as a single person I still find single room discomfort to me simply because I have got everything in a single room. What will I do now when there are more than three in that single room?
No! no!! no!!! I can't deal with it.
I will marry when I feel I am ready. It's a must and it has to happen but first thing first let everything even if not everything let most things be put in place first then we deal with the ones that will come up later which I know they won't be difficult to handle.
Please spare me the bullshit of when you get married. Financial blessings will come.
