Get up and walk

Come on, you can do it. Stop looking for what is not there, focus on the white of the wall instead of trying to find the black spot.

Again you fall back into this. You get careless and suddenly you find yourself going over the old words in your head again, the ones you heard many times in your childhood. No matter who said them, no matter how many times they were repeated.

Understand that they were almost always said lightly, unconsciously, moved by force of habit, without thinking that they could be doing harm. Perhaps they were said unintentionally, very different from the way you received them, they did not think about the marks they left in your life...

The truth is that that time no longer exists, step by step it vanished like smoke, there is nothing real there that can hurt you. It is only echoes that come back from the bottom of your memory, just that, distant echoes of a place that already passed...

What does it matter how many times someone said your drawings were no good...? It's a matter of perception. They couldn't come close to the look in your eyes, they didn't have the magic that was alive in you. Only your childish eyes could see the hidden story in those shapes. What does it matter how many times they told you to shut up because you sang at the top of your lungs...? They told you that your singing fell like a brick in their ears. They couldn't see the joy in your heart when you sang those things. They couldn't appreciate your great sensitivity.

Why do you doubt...? Look at the evidence, it's there. You have been able to do wonderful things, you have been able to illuminate the path of others. Why isn't all the thanks you receive every day enough...? Why do you keep thinking that you are not doing it all right..., feeling that you are missing something...?

At some point you fell into the trap of believing in perfection. You set out to reach it... You looked for it with determination... And you felt that you could not reach it, it slipped through your hands, it was always elusive to your intentions... Isn't that enough? Accept once and for all that perfection is a chimera, an empty dream, an idea created to torture the mind?

The reality is that we are all imperfect creatures, that is our nature... We cannot be good in everything. Each one of us has our lights and shadows. That is a great truth that we must accept... Each one has a limited capacity.

Just as you can't breathe under water, there are many things that are beyond our possibilities.

We must accept that most of the world is beyond our control. We have to learn to live with that. The important thing is to do things with love, with commitment, with the conviction that we are delivering the best we can do, and you are very good at that. That's all on our side. The rest, including a good part of the result, depends on many factors beyond our control.

Check deep down in your heart, hold on to the light that is there. Get going once more. Get up and go...

This is my entry to challenge 146 proposed by friend @galenkp, under "What you need to hear". To give it continuity I invite my friends @cetb2008 and @lisbethseijas.

Thanks for your time.