I used to think it is easy for me to connect with people and make friends. even as a child, when we moved a lot, it was always easy for me to make friends. So why as an adult it's all of the sudden so difficult?
In the last couple of years, I found it harder for me to make friends or even enjoy new people's company. It's not not that I'm actively looking to make new friends, I'm compactly happy with the small, yet very close group of friends that I already have. I just thought it could be nice to have some friends in this part of the world.
At first, I thought that I just didn't meet the right type of people, but as the time went by, I started to think that maybe I was the problem. Maybe I'm too judgmental or too guarded and not open to create new relationships. After all, all I need is 2 minutes of conversation to decide whether you're irritating or close friend material type of person.
I was sure that I was the one who avoided close human contact. But few weeks ago, I met my boyfriend's far relative who came for a visit. I never met her before, but we get along from the first moment and I even let her join my long beach walks. We spent a lot of time together and got to know each other and eventually, we became close friends.
So now I guess, that real problem wasn't me being too picky. The problem was that I just didn't meet the right type of people. After all, not everyone should be my friends, and I pretty confident that I know how choose my close friends.
