It has been a full week since I am not below the limit of stability and in the last three days of this week has been a total struggle a total war especially internally and not only for the monetary part because sometimes we can endure this looking for daily solutions and as I emphasized in past publications the uncertainty behind this uncertain future of something that does not keep as a confused thought to seek solutions or at least stability.
Today from very early I get up I fix some things in the house and yet I find myself with the mess that I had left yesterday and is where I noticed that the consumption of cigarettes coffee has increased me drastically I get your level and stress have entered me and making you the physical change my face looks a little more tired stress when it dominates our body makes presence noticeably I have multiple marks on my body on my face on my chest I have some that look like burns but yet I know they are the product of the same stress caused.
Well in the last two weeks my mom has been in the city of Maturin a little away while she takes care of my cousins aura because my aunt and my other cousin are currently in the city of Barquisimeto being part of a soccer team which allowed my cousin to enter this is a situation that has not affected everyone simultaneously but this has been positive although we have in mind that the cost of this institution was $ 90 and today is the last day available to make this payment and thus tomorrow begin their great journey in this world of professional soccer.
I am very proud of them and I know that all the family is very proud of them and here little by little between all of us we have put our grain of flour to complete this amount but nevertheless today is the last day for them as well as for me personally since they ask me how I am and obviously I do not want to cause inconveniences or worries to any of the family members so much. so I have come to ask for help from friends like what I have found on the platform I don't know how to explain this but believe me sometimes it makes it a little easier or a little less embarrassing when we ask for help from strangers as asking for help from people who surround ourselves with us who know what our struggle is like is sometimes a statement of failure.
The calm of the pets and their company the solitude of the house there are so many things that I know I can be thankful for but nevertheless life is not only about being thankful to live happily and knowing how to produce, knowing how to believe, knowing how to create especially in the future that we want because here where we are we are not comfortable and we want to move forward.
When I see the pets I wonder what I will feed them today since yesterday late at night I was able to get some money to buy some rice and a can of sardines for the four of us to eat, the three dogs and me.
I know that for many people this is something illogical as a 30 year old man does not have an economic integrity or a stability of thought that directs him towards a straight path without so much despair and without so many falls, but these falls have nothing to do with any substance that I have already 5 years away from that she had that to this day I think it is still charging me a little bit of its bill, in storm the only struggle is to bring some food to the home so I have lost a little more weight and I know that my physical change is currently somewhat noticeable at the beginning of the year so I will do enough exercise to put on weight so I can present myself a little better to the people who know me and especially to my family member it would be very nice someday to be her pride and joy.
I think all these reflections are more of a vent than in reflection so the truth I know that you must have firmness in my actions and my words so when I finish this publication I will go to the avenue of the town with my brushes my paint and I hope it gives me 100 luck to see if today I can get some kind of painting job with which to afford the day A greeting to all I hope you are very well I wish you never ever in life to be in this type of situation amen.
