I am not by nature a decent sort
I love to drink, and dance, and laugh as the rest do
Then quietly and invisibly I slip away
But I'm here and you never know
In the depths of my depression
I think of Shakespeare
Because I am so literate
Because it's difficult to know where you begin and end
I try to keep my intelligence at bay
But sometimes I still have to stretch for it
Messing with the things that I am unable to control
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I am the infinite
Oh and I remember everyone's first line
I am the perpetual youth
Permanent autumn
Then silently and invisibly I slip away
I never really want to remember that I'm scared to live
I hate myself for this how could anyone live
It is the uncontrollable words I can't stop saying
The things I can't control
Oh I swear I'll make the trip to the bigger city
Where I will be so alone
Oh yeah it's the and I imagine I'll burn at the end of the day
I think what I'm burning away through was my curse of pride
Have you ever been so distracted by the way I
There's something about being inside myself
But now I might just snap at you if you're disrespectful
Now this is what I get for not leaving that window open
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Messing with the things that I am unable to control
Facetious as the devil
Like god I've got the most delicate skin
I am the only person in the world I can call my own
So I am impossible to mess with, I like that
This is what I get for not leaving that window open
And you may think I'm weak, you may think I'm vain
But oh no I'm not the weak one. Just being honest
Just lying to myself
I'd take it over being picked on as long as I get to stay the same
I'm sure all this conversation is what you're thinking
