I don't need to pretend and I show my genuine self

It says that at the present time people are wearing a fake mask and show them an ideal person in front of others. Some people pretend to be good people in front of others while they are actually not. They try to show that they are good because they want to take advantage of others. But it’s not the case for everyone. Some people can wear a fake mask for other reasons also. Some people try to act good and try to be perfect for the reorganization of others as well as people. For that they do many things which they don’t want to do usually.

It’s like I don’t want to give my things to anyone, but when the kid of a guest asks about my Rubik’s Cube and wants to play with it, I don’t like to give it to them as it’s something precious to me. But when the kid wants it in front of others it’s indeed hard to refuse but if there were not others, I might choose not to give it or divert the kids in my own ways. It was just an example and there can be many other things like that, and we are honest with ourselves when we are alone, and nobody is watching us. What kind of person do I become when nobody is alone. Are you curious to know?

I am an introvert person, and I rarely go outside unless I have any tasks. My daily routine is quite simple, and I follow it on regular basis. But when I am alone, I don’t follow my regular routine. And I don’t follow the disciplined life, but I make sure it does not affect my efficiency. I feel like I am the king and there is nobody to stop me or restrict me. I am allowed to do anything. The first thing I do is finish all of my tasks as early as possible and somehow, I feel that my work becomes faster and after finishing my task I directly go to sleep without lunch. I prepare my lunch in the afternoon or go without lunch because I feel that it’s not necessary for me. Even I skip my breakfast and supper. I usually do that when I am alone at home. And I do such a thing because I feel those things are not worthy of my time. It’s like I am ready to use my time to write a post here or engagement, but I won’t cook food for myself.

In case of changing myself when I become alone is kind of rare. It’s because I always show my genuine self in front of others and it’s not something others, even my parents don’t like and it’s because I don’t care about anyone usually. Many times, I am quite rude also in front of others and I can refuse people for any kind of thing also without thinking too much. I wasn’t like that before but later I chose to become like that, and I never felt bad about the decision. Why should I care about the people whom I don’t think are not so important. For me, except for few people, others are unimportant people and I don’t need to pretend as I am not afraid of hurting their feelings. And I don’t explain anything to anyone as I am not bound to do that. So, people are not something I actually care and nor do I need to pretend in front of them. I guess I only care about kids. They are not mature and they deserve my kindness and I always stay caution not to hurt their feeling, and I am ready to pretend because I really care about them.