The Christmas is here and I can't stop smiling because it was a taxi driver the person who reminded me of how it is to be a 200% child in this time of the year. I wasn't sure if I would even make a Christmas tree until the energy of this guy was so positively infectious that I got the Xmas virus. As he was driving where I needed to be, he told me how happy he was to be able to make the tree, to feel like a child again. It was all I needed in order to remember that I still am a big kid.
The tradition , at least in Romania, is to make the Xmas tree on 24th of December. So this is what I did. I do not want to support the cutting of natural trees from the forest anymore so I bought a plastic tree. My dream is to plant my own tree in my yard when I will move into a big home and decorate that. I feel that cutting 10 or 20 years of growth for a couple of days isn't worth it.
I felt I wanted to let my inner child have this moment. I bought some sweets which reminded me of my childhood.
In the past many families put candy in the tree as a replacement for globes. Not everybody had the money to buy fancy decorations. I still remember how I sneaked during the night and secretely took the candy out of the wraping, eating it and leaving the package empty dangling in the tree. It was me again who got tricked when "discovering" that the candy I wanted to eat again was no longer there. This is what you get when you leave a fake candy in the Xmas tree lol.
I told my senior friend from Ireland my plans. She smiled telling me: darling, you are recreating your childhood. You go back to being a child by doing this. Beautiful. I smiled. She is right. This year is very special for me as I managed to make the transition from being homeless to having a home. Huge.
I felt an amazing joy while cooking. In a proper kitchen. It felt surreal. It still feels like this. Everyday I thank God for the abundance that I have.
I smile and I feel so happy beyond words because this is really a blessing. I cooked sarmale...it has been more than 3 years since I cooked this. Shall I tell you that I ate a whole bunch like someone who hasn't seen food for a long time? It is incredible how the trauma of being homeless makes you appreciate so much what you now have. I am in a constant state of awe that I can't even put it into words. Only someone who has been in a similar pain could possibly understand me.
So I took all the sweets and transformed them into decorations. Doing this healed a little part of me, that part which got hurt when my parents divorced and having a Christmas was more of "me alone" time. But as adults we can heal and recreate what we desire. We are no longer helpless, we can rise above any situation.
You may wonder what is at the bottom of the tree. My gifts. From Santa. Something which I decided that I need for further motivation in 2022. A sleeping bag because I want to sleep in a tent and look at the stars and a motorcycle atlas for Romania because I want to get a bike and travel for a whole year and see my country. Both dreams are highly achievable and I strongly believe in the power of visualization.
The sleeping bag is so warm. It was harder to get it back in once I got it out lol. I felt so warm inside. I could see myself sleeping in this regularly if I would have to.
Scared mummy
Happy mummy
Sleeping mummy
And at the peak of the tree is what is in my heart: Hive. I am deeply grateful for being on this platform and I have no words to thank the Universe for offering me so much through this blockchain.
Holidays are about inner peace. The funny thing is that a taxi driver reminded me of my inner child and today it was again a taxi driver who reminded me of what I am now. We talked about quantic physics, consciousness, death and soul. Shall I say : wow, amazing, spectacular, fantastic? I adore brainy conversations!β€ He felt so happy for meeting a spiritual person like me and he expressed that he felt more peaceful around me because of my energy. An adult who will take trauma, turn it into valuable lessons, heal and love herself is an adult who will ooze peace and tranquility. I feel utterly blessed and if it would be one thing I would gladly give to everyone from here it would be inner peace and self love. Love is the most powerful force in the Universe and I wish everyone from Hive to carry an inner Christmas tree every day for the rest of their lives. You glow from the inside and this is the holiday of LIFE .
Happy Christmasπ€π₯°
