So I am feeling good. This is quite a big achievement considering that I am on chemotheraphy with Paclitaxel and Cisplatin while simultaneously injecting Phesgo and Zoladex and I believe that the change of treatment and consequently of my mood contributes to this state of well being.
Finally exposing my latest drawing and also making a video talking about it
I began metronomic chemotheraphy instead of the classic one (MTD- maximum tolerated dose every 20 days, a method which, in my opinion, is outdated) which means that I will get weekly smaller doses instead of the whole (junk) thing at once, one time per month.
I started to feel a surge of creativity and to put it to good use. I finished some of my drawings and starting new ones. I am writing more often on my personal website in order to attract more like minded readers and to grow as an artist and a writer. I make plans for my future and I want to share some of my creations with you. I could, of course, make separate posts for each of them but I prefer to do it in this post alone. A change once in a while is always good. I am recording vlogs with what happens in my life but they are less often as I don't have the intention of making my diagnosis the superstar of my life. I am beyond it.
So I wanted to do pyrography again and I have found the opportunity to gift one acquaintance such a personalized item. I realized last year that calling someone a friend is a long shot. I believe that calling someone a friend should not be used lightly and now I can see clearer who was and is my friend and who is a mere acquaintance who pops in and out of my reality. I have chosen to write this sentence on the wood because of a link to a video that she has sent in which the guy was a christian motivational speaker who said this: in any challenge that you face think about the fact that God uses this opportunity to expand you into a bigger vessel so you could receive more of what He has for you. At that time this resonated a lot with me as I was in the old town , barely walking and using my hand. So I gifted to her what her link gifted to me: hope.
I also documented this on my channel
I finished a work I started back in 2025 titled The cosmic peace lily, before my life would take a different course because of the diagnosis. I felt liberated and happy to be able to finish it and I am pondering the idea to order, for the first time since I started to paint, some high quality prints for my art to offer them as gifts for the few people that reached out to help me in this moment of my life. It would be a first as I never printed my work. I have found a place where they can print the image on Hahnemühle paper , which is a superiour quality cotton paper.
I also forgot to post some handmade earrings I have created from Fimo paste for my sister and niece way back in october when my hand managed to get better before it got worse.
The more I allow myself to create the better I feel and am. We are destined to be creators in this life and it takes a great amount of awareness to step out of the hamster wheel and pause and analyse the way in which we have led our life until now.
