The Community service.

Last week, I showed interest in volunteering for a position in a particular community that I joined recently.

Initially, I wanted to ignore it but then I remembered that these are the kind of opportunities that I need to learn and gain more experience.

Yesterday, I was interviewed and after the interview, I felt really bad. My mind started coming up with different reasons why I will end up loosing that position due to the way I answered some of the questions they asked me.

i felt like I wasn't expressive and eloquent enough. i judged myself so badly to the point that I almost started regretting why i opted for the position in the first place.

Later in the day when I was a bit more calm, I thought about it and I realized something.

The issue wasn't that I might not have done well in the interview, the issue was that I did something my mind wasn't familiar with and so it was trying to fight it by those discouraging thoughts.

On a normal day, I would have skipped that opportunity but this time around I didn't and that felt strange.

You see, the things you do and the things you choose not to do either positive or negative has a way of conditioning your mind.

The moment you choose to step out of that comfort zone that your mind is familiar with, it will definitely fight back.

That's when you start doubting your decisions.
You start saying things like:
"I shouldn't have done it"
"I don't think I'm good enough for this job"
"What if I fail?"
"What if it doesn't work out?"

It's okay to feel this way because it's a sign that you took a bold step to grow and progress.

What's not okay is for you to keep entertaining thoughts like this to the point where you get so overwhelmed and end up crawling back into your shell.

Chosing to do what you've never done before will definitely bring doubts and fear.

Yes, you will be scared and worried about the outcome but you can still choose to do it regardless.

So, if you are currently experiencing this phase of growth that comes with stretching, I want you to know that you are not alone.

The resistance and fear you feel right now is not a threat, it's a signal that you've finally made that bold decision to come out of hiding place.

Now is the time to develop the ability to sit with that discomfort, embrace it and let it shape you.

Trust me, at the end of the day you will be glad you did and you will be super proud of yourself
The truth about life is that we will remain stuck in one spot if we don’t let go of the pain people have caused us. If we keep living in our hurts and dwelling on things done to us, we won’t make much progress in life.