I know I am not writing good enough to attract too many. This was the very reason I stopped writing a while back.
First, it was the writer's block, then there was the lack of flow in words, and then less and less organized thoughts. This time I am not going to quit. I'm intended to keep writing unless and until I get rid of fear of failure which is one of the reasons behind a writer's block. Not even thinking about perfection at this stage, just believing in doing and doing... I know, I'll get on the track ultimately.
I still remember my interview for the admission in the masters. Aside from other things they asked me if I knew any of the current or previous students from the department.
Unfortunately, I said yes. The person, I mentioned, was the elder brother of one of my friends. I met him twice or three times while visiting the friend at his home and talked with him casually for very breif moments. I didn't know him well. It was quite unnecessary to mention him. There were some emotional after effects to this answer.
This was neither the mistakes of the faculty members nor mine, but of... Yes, you think right.
This was meant to tell you that the consequences were dire for me, at least emotionally. I am a Pisces and a very very sensitive one too. You could only imagine how severe the effects were for me.
There is a saying, "Everything happens happens for the better", I don't believe it. I do believe in everything teaches you something, though. I did learn to separate my emotions from my studies, a little late but not too late.
All of us have the ability to learn conciously or unconciously.
When we try to learn something and facing difficulty understanding it, most of us leave it to that, "this is not for me, I cannot do it", these are the thinking of most of us. I am, and in some cases was, not different than that. But I came to know, this isn't completely true, at least to what we set our minds to. Why I am saying this because our unconcious mind is also in work with our concious mind without us knowing. We learn a great deal unconciously. This is the very reason when we try it again after some time we get surprised to know that it wasn't that hard to understand or do or achieve the way we felt the last. This is the magic of the unconcious mind.
So, keep trying again and again is the right approach and only way moving forward, and I am intended to just doing that.
