Growing up, I always battled with many insecurities. I felt I wasn’t good-looking enough and that I wasn’t good enough in general. Even though I was intelligent academically, I still felt less of myself. I felt I wasn't catching up with some things. In my attempt to be accepted, I tried to fit into circles that didn’t fit me. I allowed friends to choose me instead of choosing my friends. I lived my life trying to impress people rather than express myself, I tried to be part of people’s lives, maybe people I felt were better than me.
But after I finished my senior classes in college, I took time to reflect on my life. I realized that half of my problems came from me, and the other half came from friends who constantly talked down on me people who saw my strengths but made me feel small because of them.
That was my turning point. I decided to cut off every toxic friend and anyone who made me doubt my worth. I changed my mindset and began to see myself in a new light. Infact I came to believe that I am fearfully and wonderfully made, and I don’t need anyone’s validation to know that. I also learned not to be afraid of making mistakes, because mistakes are part of growth. I became gentler with myself and more in control of situations around me.
In fact, I no longer worry about what people think of me, because progress matters more to me than perfection. I no longer fear losing people who make me feel less, because they were never meant to stay. Inner peace is a treasure, and I’ve learned to prioritize mine.
Now, I live my life to express, not to impress. I care less about people’s opinions and more about my peace, purpose, and progress.
Thank you dear readers
