I can't remember the last time I took a selfie and when I say selfie, I mean a normal photo of myself, without making silly faces or acting like a fool, hihi. Today I made a few random shots and these three are the most ladylike possible. The thing is, selfies like this have been putting me in a low mood over the past year or two, because I notice changes in my eyes. In my head that feels like a really big problem. So big that I sometimes feel like my whole face has changed and that I no longer look like myself.
Everyone tells me that I'm overthinking it and that there is no person on this planet with two completely identical eyes, hands and so on... The left side of our lips is never one hundred percent same as the right. I am aware of all that, but still, it somehow sends me into thinking that I have changed too much, that this is no longer me, that I look worn out and visibly unwell.
Maybe it's mostly about my shaken self-confidence. I've been thinking about going back to a psychologist, haven't been for a long time. It would probably be good for me to talk about this and other things that bother me, with someone who isn't close to me. And when it comes to a psychologist, in todays world, especially for us emotionally sensitive and insecure, there is always plenty of material for a good and long conversation. (:
• Do you go to a psychologist?
• Or have you gone in the past?
• How necessary do you think sessions with a psychologist are for living a normal life today, with all the thoughts and the overload of information we are bombarded with every day?
I used to go a few times in the past and I was also on a very mild, minimal antidepressant therapy. From early childhood I felt dose of anxiety, and later, during puberty, it increased a bit, so I had occasional short depressive episodes as a secondary response to those social fears.
For the past few years I haven't been taking anything and I don't think I need it now, but I do feel that talking to a professional, from time to time, maybe twice a month or even less often, would really help me relax and learn how to control those silly thoughts and worries.
PS I hope I chose the right community for a blog like this. Greetings to all the Ladies of HIVE and to everyone else who supports this wonderful community. 🤗❣️
