Just Me And My Thoughts.

This is a very deep and thought provoking one. And in all honesty I've been doing this for a while, still the topic hits. For a while now, I've been taking time to think and reflect on a lot of things. There are even times that I will just decide to step away from anything that might want to get my attention... Including my phone and the Internet.

I remember the last time I did that, I was just sitting all by myself. I didn't even plan too, I had woken up that morning, said a short prayer and began to get ready for work. Immediately I was done and was about to step out, I lost the will too. Immediately, I reached out to my boss and apologized that I won't be coming over to work.

I put off my data (which is something I rarely do), and dropped my phone. I just sat down and began to ponder on a whole lot of things. Before I knew it, time was long gone already. That was not my first time of doing such, but that was the first time it would last that long. I wasn't even hearing any other thing during those long moments, all I could hear was my own thought.

I thought about my parents, about things they've had to go through for us all, about their situation at the moment. I thought about their love and various sacrifices, I thought about how ungrateful I've been as a child and about how disrespectful I have acted when I don't really understand things. And at that moment, I was so grateful to them in a way I've never shown them before.

And that thought pushed me to think about how I could make a better life for myself so I could as well take very good care of them. I thought about my journey, how I have had it planned out, how sickness came in along the line and stole few years from me, I thought about how I've been journeying ever since then. I thought about what I'm doing at the moment and what more I really need to do or get engaged in just so to have a more better and a more comfortable life.

That thought as well graduated into another that I can't even escape, I thought about the few months I have left as a serving corp member. It's almost coming to an end and I can't help but think about the next thing to do. Because in few months time, reality will set in and I need to be set for it as well, I need to be prepared, I need to strategize and make a plan. It shouldn't hit me suddenly as it as done for others.

And in all honesty, such a moment can be so helpful. It made me more aware of things, it allowed me sit myself down and talk sense to myself, it made me to be honest with myself in a way I would never have been with a second party. And once in a while, those kind of moments are always necessary in our journey of life.

Also, I won't stop doing it. Not at all, it has always helped me to be more focused and get me back on line/track when it seems I'm going out of line or derailing.

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