A picture of me...
Thereās something quiet about preparing for a birthday before it arrives, no candles yet, no noise. Just you, standing in between who youāve been and who youāre becoming.
The 1st of May is close, and I can feel it not in excitement alone, but in awareness. This year, I donāt want to rush into celebration. I want to meet it prepared, so, Iāve started early by prepping in advance.
I find myself putting things away, not just clothes or clutter, but versions of me that no longer fit. The rethinking, the need to be everything for everyone. The silent doubts I carried like they were part of my identity.
One by one, I fold them up and set them aside, not with anger, but with understanding. They served me once but they donāt belong in this next chapter.
And in that space, Iām placing new things
Iām wishing for growth that shows, not just in what I achieve, but in how I respond. Iām wishing for peace that isnāt shaken by delay, for discipline that doesnāt wait for motivation.
For a deeper sense of self that isnāt negotiated by opinions.
These are the gifts I want even before anyone says āhappy birthday.ā
This time, my congratulations wonāt start from people, theyāll start from me.
āWell done for not giving up.ā āWell done for growing quietly.ā āWell done for becoming.ā
Because sometimes, the loudest celebrations are the ones we whisper to ourselves
Thereās something sacred about preparing your life like youāre expecting a better version of yourself to arrive. You clean differently, you think differently, thereby choosing differently. Not because a date demands it, but because growth does
And maybe thatās the truth about us as humans, we are always in advance of something, always shedding, always becoming, always making room for something to be fit
The real transformation isnāt in the day we celebrate, but in the unseen moments where we decide we are ready for more.
So this year, I wonāt just add a number to my age, i'll step into a version of myself Iāve already started becoming.
This is me, preparing my mind for the birthday in advance
HAPPY BIRTHDAY IN ADVANCE TO ME